Is it normal i'm this lost ?

Is it normal that I cant care less for women ? I’ve had a few crushes I wanted to die for, they were all out of my league, and nothing happened. I’ve never actually met some of them. But, that’s not the point. The point is this – I’ve never had a girlfriend. I’ve turned down quite a few average looking girls, and by the looks of it, I’ll keep doing that. I’m not a shitcunt bragging here, I’ve been told to be average looking, but really smart etc. Not bragging either, just trying to give you the full picture. I’ve been hitting the gym for ~3 years, and made some significant gains, which boosted my confidence. I was hoping to get more lucky with the “above average” girls, but what I’ve discovered is, that they don’t go for the combination of looks, character etc. but mainly for the good looking guys or cash.
So, what I’m left here is that I should make a compromise and be with someone that I don’t find attractive at all, just for the sake of being with someone and not be picked on by my mates. They don’t really pick on me because I’ve rejected some girls that they wanted, so, they cant really push me around with the “ where’s your gf mate, get laid mate”. They also say I’ve got high standards. I think that too, but, I just cant like someone that likes me, I’m not a lying shitcunt either.
Another thing, I think it’s okay to turn down a girl, if you’ve been turned down by someone else. Why should I give a chance to someone, make a compromise, if someone else doesn’t want to make a compromise for me ? Why should I force myself ? What’s the point ? I don’t see it. I’m prepared to wait for that one “above average” girl , than 10 “average” girls. I may sound shallow, I may even be shallow, but so are women, so, all the “we care for character” as well, its all bollocks.
And all the bullshit, “fall in love with her personality”, is awful. We are attracted to looks, and after that comes personality. Not saying looks are everything, but they matter. I don’t want to do the following – “She’s got a cute smile, but doesn’t have an ass, she’s quite quiet as well, but hell, nice tits”, I want to actually feel attracted to someone without doing the above.
And finally, just this. It hurts as hell being alone. I can literally feel the pain inside of me. By the age of 16, I was going to a shit faze, puberty and all, and only then, noticing all my flaws. By the age of 19, now soon to be 20, I’ve managed to mostly fix them. In those 16-19, I was hoping to find someone, but, high school has ended, I’m on second year of a faculty, and still single. I don’t look desperate on the outside, I’m jolly all the time, happy etc. , but on the inside, I feel so bitter and sad. Bitter, that I wanted this one girl for years, and we’ve only talked once, and sad that I didn’t get a chance to actually feel loved by someone.
I don’t know what the fuck should I do, I cant force myself to be with someone I don’t like, I cant be with someone I like, so, I stay single I guess ?