Is it normal i'm like this?
I feel that once I make a bond with someone, I never want to let that person go. I feel this way to two friends I've had eversince childhood. I feel as if out of every friend I had, they were the only ones that tolerated me and put up with me better than the others. How they would still be my friends regardless of what I did (and vice versa). Even though I haven't see them in a while, I refuse to move on and I'm still upset over it.
I can't talk to my mother because she'd just tell me to "move on" and how "I'll make new friends." I don't want new friends. I just want my old ones. I lost them to my own actions so of course it should be ok for me to be upset about them and not want new ones. It's not like I asked to leave my homestate.
I want to go back to my homestate but then I'd be alone and my mother would be upset (as would my brothers). So how do I choose between the people related to me vs the ones I accepted as my family members (Well one my family member, the other as my love interest)? The thing is, with the common dreams I have, it's like my friends are beaconing me to return.
IIN?