Iin, i'm a drunken party hard christian but i feel like an anomaly?
I'm 21. I go out at least 3 times a week and can get smashed consecutively because I don't get hangovers. I can pull (make out) with a different guy every night, and will if I feel like it. Most of the time I go to a club to dance though but my dancing at times (as well as clothes) can be a little too sexy. At any time I can be talking to 2/3 guys at once but of course I don't make a show of it, it's all on the down low...but this is because I don't see any future with those guys. Foremost I see myself as christian.
I'm promiscuous in the shallowest sense (kissing/making out) but, i'm also a virgin and will give up nothing to a guy i'm not in a relationship with.
The men i've dated can't comprehend this though. Christian guys see me as unobtainabl/too social/un-tradiational. Non-christian guys expect me to give it up the day we meet. I can't say the number of times i've been asked for threesomes, one night stands etc. but that's not at all what i'm about. My christian friends don't go out, party or understand my type of fun. My non-christian friends sleep around and party but respect my choices to remain religious and celibate.
It saddens me to realize that a man I find attractive thinks so little about sex/relationships/women etc. it completely takes him off my radar and sometimes I wonder if I should just be that girl...but I don't want to be. I have a hard enough time finding anyone really like me, let alone a guy like me. I feel like an anomaly.
I'm hot, my image to most is the party girl who knows everyone, is entertaining and knows how to have a good time. But I still attend church 3 times a week, work 3 jobs and am juggling a degree.
(Sorry there are clearly a lot more issues here than just the way I feel)