Is it normal i like the thought of having sex but..

What you're feeling unfortunately isn't that uncommon. When it comes to sex, women have all sorts of baggage that's been loaded on to them from the time they were very young.

Like the other responses have said, I think a woman needs to understand what she needs before she can have any hope of enjoying sex with a guy. If you're not familiar with your own sexual response and you're not open to receiving sexual pleasure, then it's unrealistic to expect that someone else will be able to push all the right buttons.

And unfortunately it has to be said that even if you do know what you need, only some guys will care about that. Even guys who do care can get it wrong if they don't understand that just because something they did worked with one woman (or at least appeared to work), that doesn't mean all women will always respond in the same way.

Sex can be a wonderful part of life and relationships. If you want to better understand your own sexual response, you have to spend some time learning how you roll. You might also consider reading "Come as You Are" by Emily Nagoski. The book busts a lot of myths about female sexuality, and it may help you understand why you respond to sex as you do.

One final point: you don't merely say that you don't enjoy sex, you say that you "hate" it. Perhaps you're only using the word for dramatic effect, but if you truly do find the idea of sex disgusting and you despise yourself and the guy after you've had sex, then I think you have some serious issues to address. I have no idea what those might be, but it's not uncommon for people raised in sex-negative environments to have big problems enjoying sex, even if they're with a person who they love deeply and their partner is patient and technically proficient.

I would say that there is a good possibility that in your past you may have experienced sexual trauma of some sort ? Abuse or forced. If this is the case, I'm sorry to bring it up. I know how hard some of that shit is to get over and past. You said you don't care for sex with men. Have you considered or tried switching sides and experiment with a bisexual encounter with another beautiful female body ? Can't hurt to try, right ? Well kidding aside, I really hope you can find out why you have such a hateful attitude about sex. Sex can be a wonderful and beautiful thing. It's even better when there is another person there to join you for a go round. What about masturbating ? Do you get pleasure from yourself ? Enjoyable - yes - no sorta.? Above all don't be afraid to either explore your own sexuality with and about yourself. Maybe someday you will meet someone that will make you wet in your panties as you stand. By the way you also didn't mention yourage. That could have a big impact on how you perceive sexual activity. When I was a teen our dad told us "if you get a girl pregnant, then you are outta here". So I was so nervous the first time I had sex. That was always in the back of my mind until I was 18 and off gone in the Navy.
I really hope you can find your way to multiple orgasms someday. Best of luck.

You need practice, buy a dildo and get better because it is not fair for you or your boyfriend to have this kind of sex life

I'm guessing you're new to this.
Guys suck, ok.
You have to learn to please yourself, before any man is going to please you.
This myth about sex being some great thing.
It's over done and built up.
To a point no person can match.
Step back, focus on you.
Know what you enjoy.
Experiment a bit, then go from there.