Is it normal i let my boyfriend kiss a guy but now regret it?
I was at a party the other day with my boyfriend. We are both bisexual. He had never kissed a guy before. I was drunk and stoned. He asked me if he could kiss one of his close male friends. I said he could, even though I knew I was only saying it because I was drunk and I don't want to tell him what to do all the time. And I was scared that he would kiss the guy anyway, but secretly, if I didn't say he could.
Now I feel awful, like he doesn't love me anymore. I feel like I love him too much to ever kiss someone who isn't him. I told him this and he said he was ok with doing it because he didn't feel like he loved me very much at the time. He says he does love me loads again now and he just wanted to get the bisexuality out of his system. But I saw him kissing the guy, it was so passionate. I'm not sure I believe him.
I shouldn't feel jealous or weird because I said it was okay, but I do. Is it normal for me to feel like this?