Is it normal i just realized i have been thinking i was fatter than i actually
am?
I kept thinking I'm bigger than this girl at my work, that I'm pretty huge, that my legs are enormous, that my belly is bigger than santa's, that my face is super puffy and that my arms are like that of pillysbury doughboy.
Then at work today, I kept thinking, why do some people say I look thin, why does that chick over there say she's fat in front of me, why does she tell me she has to lose weight when I'm like 20 pounds fatter than her? When I told her she looks fine, why did she tell me thanks anyway but I know I'm fat?
So I did something. I checked her size on her clothes. She always changes from business to regular clothes when she leaves and she opened her locker, put her clothes on the table with her purse and then someone calls her over so she leaves it there and the door closed. That's when I went for it. I quickly hovered over them and looked and found her sweater that's normal fitting on her is XL and her coat is XXL. Then I saw her jeans were a size 15. I wear a medium in my shirts, a large in my coats and a size 9 in pants.
Why is it that I still feel larger than her by 15-20 pounds? She keeps telling me she's so fat when she's around me but I still can't see her as fatter than me when I'm a whale.
is it normal to think this way? My boyfriend says I look normal weight and my friend says I look normal weight too...Even one of my coworkers once asked me several months ago if I was on a diet because I was eating a small salad with water for my dinner and when I said yes, I need to lose about 30 pounds, she was like what, you're thin and I laughed. So now I'm like what's wrong with me? is it normal to feel like a whale even when everyone thinks I'm not? Seriously, I'm flipping 145 pounds at 5'5. I feel I should be around 110, sigh.