Is it normal i just realized i have been thinking i was fatter than i actually

am?

I kept thinking I'm bigger than this girl at my work, that I'm pretty huge, that my legs are enormous, that my belly is bigger than santa's, that my face is super puffy and that my arms are like that of pillysbury doughboy.

Then at work today, I kept thinking, why do some people say I look thin, why does that chick over there say she's fat in front of me, why does she tell me she has to lose weight when I'm like 20 pounds fatter than her? When I told her she looks fine, why did she tell me thanks anyway but I know I'm fat?

So I did something. I checked her size on her clothes. She always changes from business to regular clothes when she leaves and she opened her locker, put her clothes on the table with her purse and then someone calls her over so she leaves it there and the door closed. That's when I went for it. I quickly hovered over them and looked and found her sweater that's normal fitting on her is XL and her coat is XXL. Then I saw her jeans were a size 15. I wear a medium in my shirts, a large in my coats and a size 9 in pants.

Why is it that I still feel larger than her by 15-20 pounds? She keeps telling me she's so fat when she's around me but I still can't see her as fatter than me when I'm a whale.

is it normal to think this way? My boyfriend says I look normal weight and my friend says I look normal weight too...Even one of my coworkers once asked me several months ago if I was on a diet because I was eating a small salad with water for my dinner and when I said yes, I need to lose about 30 pounds, she was like what, you're thin and I laughed. So now I'm like what's wrong with me? is it normal to feel like a whale even when everyone thinks I'm not? Seriously, I'm flipping 145 pounds at 5'5. I feel I should be around 110, sigh.

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  • Cuntsiclestick

    Feeling insecure about your weight is normal. I used to feel that way about my sister. Last year she was 130 something pounds and I was like 160. Over the course of a year she gained weight, I lost weight and no matter how much I lost, I always saw her as this perfect skinnier person. It wasn't until the end of summer I noticed she weighed more after she wore a dress that she seemed to practically pop out of.

    By the way, I was a size 9 in jeans and 140 something pounds during the summer and I can say that is NOT overweight. It's actually quite normal.

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  • Nismax

    I always used to think the exact same. Trust me honey. Don't worry.

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  • sam20118

    So it's likely that you have a psychological disorder known as body dysmorphia. Simply put, you see normal or healthy parts of your body as being irregular or unhealthy. In reality, said body is perfectly normal. My suggestion would be to seek some kind of counselor, or some other form of psychiatric help. If that doesn't appeal to you, I would suggest speaking to a doctor to reassure yourself that you are of normal and healthy porportions. You might also speak to a dietitian to be sure that you are eatting and exercising in a way that is healthy. Know above all else, that your description is that of a perfectly normal body, and you should seek help in dispelling the unhealthy view you have of your body. The dietitian suggestion may also help you to ensure that you have a healthy diet, as dietary issues that may be related to body dysmorphia could be exacerbating the problem, or flat out making you unhealthy. If nothing else, be sure that you listen to the people who are telling you that you are of a normal weight and think very hard on what led you to see yourself in such a skewed way, and try to grow beyond it.

    I hope this helps. Be safe, and please get some help.

    Sam

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  • TheInsignificantGirl

    You may have body dysmorphea. You weigh a normal ammount for your height. If you also have wide hips and shoulders and your weight fits your frame, you must look absolutely fine.

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  • howaminotmyself

    How many people need to tell you that you aren't fat for you to believe it?

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  • DannyKanes

    Everyone's body type is different. Besides, 145 pounds isn't heavy.

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