Is it normal i hooked up with guys to get her out of my head?
When I was 16 to 18, I had strong feelings for a female friend but was too afraid to tell her along with the fact I knew she would never be with me. It were more like a dream if she had said yes she feels the same. Having her in my head for 5 fucking years day in and out drove me Insane so I pashed a couple guys to see if I'd like it but the whole time I was thinking about her so I had to tell her how I feel and the bitch rejected me. Now years later, my family think I want a guy or that I'll find one, one day even though they know I go to LGBT meet ups and already told them both I had feelings for that person. Uggh