Is it normal i have an obsessive crush on a porn star and want to marry her?

well first of all i am a virgin and she is a famous porn star so we could not be more opposite in terms of sexual experience. however i am really fascinated by her in every way possible. she is very sexy, cute, and intelligent. i think she has the perfect body and face and cutest voice ever. i have seen most of her videos and am a huge fan of her work, i just haven't been able to get an autograph yet but it would be awkward if i ever met her because i would be so nervous and sweating badly. anyway, she also has a great personality.

i watched a lot of her interviews on youtube and she has a very sweet girl next door kind of attitude that is so attractive. she is very modest and humble and sweet which is refreshing especially in the field of work that she does. she has an incredibly gentle and feminine demeanor despite her surroundings, and that to me is endearing and a sign of her strong character. i follow her on twitter and instagram and she has a great sense of humor and when she does post nudity it's always done in a tasteful and innocent way, and she has a positive outlook on life and a good head on her shoulders.

here is the deal: i know that she has had sex with hundreds of guys on camera and they have ejaculated on her face lots of times, but that doesn't decrease my attraction to her in the slighest. on the contrary, i know that being involved in the porn industry is just a job like any other and that she has sex and sells her body as a professional, and more power to her because she has become rich in the process.

porn has a social stigma attached to it and most people are prejudiced against it however it fills a niche customer base and there is huge demand for it. and i find the girls who are in this business very interesting in terms of their life story and how they got started in porn.

it would turn me on so much to kiss the face that hundreds of guys have cummed on before me, and have sex with this girl who has seen monster sized penises and has had the most intense orgasms possible, and she would probably laugh at the size of my penis and playfully tease me for my lack of experience. but it would be a challenge for me to give her the best sex ever and her blowjobs and footjobs must be phenomenal since she has given so many of them.

i often fantasize about marrying her and living together in the mountains. because she has sex as a career, maybe sometimes she would just want to cuddle and kiss and hold hands, and i am totally fine with that and respect her and her decisions so much more. i would make this girl so happy and make her feel like the most important person in the world.