Is it normal i have a crush on my friend 'cause he looks like a game character?
I'm a geek girl, a huge fan of Capcom games especially the Resident Evil series. I'm also a cosplayer and so is my best friend - Jim. We always go to the Comic Con events together.
We've known each other for over 10 years. He has always been a handsome boy but not the jock type, he's a geek like me. I had never been attracted to him until when the Resident Evil 5 was released, I looked at him and I was like 'OMG doesn't this remodeled Chris Redfield look exactly like you ?'. I mean I'm always obsessed with Chris Redfield and now there is a real Chris (Jim) standing in front of me ! That was not when I started my crush on Jim.
Later, I made Jim a Chris Redfield costume which I spent a lot of effort on and I was supposed to be Jill Valentine (Chris' partner) but my costume was super ugly so I decided not to wear it. Jim, on the contrary, was pefect in his costume. He looked exactly how I imagined him to be. He was like a younger, less muscular version of Chris Redfield and his face was simply beautiful.
Then, something started to grow inside me, I can't stop seeing Jim in Chris costume whenever I close my eyes. My heart beats like crazy when I see him. I can't even speak to him normally like before without blushing. I try to avoid him as much as I can and Jim's started to wonder. I can't tell him how I feel, he must think I'm freaky. This will ruin our friendship. I really don't know how to end this feeling. Is it normal guys ?