Is it normal i feel like i have to kill people

23% Normal
8 Comments

I've been having thoughts about torturing and killing people since I was very young. Back then it could be resolved by killing some bugs in creative ways, and later I enjoyed torturing the cat and dog in ways that would almost kill them.

Well now it's really escalated. For some reason I believe that I have to kill people in a painful way for my life to be worth it. This has had a severe impact on my life since I'm not caring about anything else. I'm constantly thinking about killing people, regardless of who they are, and it feels so amazing to imagine killing them. I haven't done it yet as I don't want to go to prison, and I think I could have a better chance of getting away with it if I wait. I told a 'friend' about it and they said I need to 'get therapy' but my mother taught me that therapy and doctors are bad and if I have a problem I just need to sort it out myself, or I'm weak.

Voting Results
23% Normal
Based on 62 votes (14 yes)
Help us keep this site organized and clean. Thanks!
[ Report Post ]
Comments ( 8 )
  • dudeofsteel31
    8 years ago

    I'm worried... Not just for your mental health but because of the fact that your story is too similar to that of serial killer. I.g. killing or torturing animals, thinking about murder far too often, and yes, planning the good/perfect get away. Please don't actually commit these atrocious acts. Understand that these people have lives you're taking away for immoral reasons. Think about that.

    Comment Hidden ( show )
    1
    1
  • deepdankstickygoo
    8 years ago

    It is not worth it. If you cross the line between fantasy and really murdering someone, your life won't get better. You will create your own personal hell. #RichardGere #painal.

    Comment Hidden ( show )
    1
    1
  • galkinam22
    8 years ago

    I was also like that, can't say that I've changed... : /

    Comment Hidden ( show )
    0
    0
  • mysistersshadow
    8 years ago

    Well you definitely sound weak.

    Comment Hidden ( show )
    0
    0
  • thegypsysailor
    8 years ago

    As I tell all those on here who wish to do that stuff, the only way to get away with it is to practice. Practice, practice, practice.
    Since it's always so risky and messy to practice on others, you should practice on yourself. As you get more proficient, you will get closer and closer to the perfect crime, and finally, you will have no more worries at all.
    Good luck.

    Comment Hidden ( show )
    0
    0
  • flamer180
    8 years ago

    Yea dont murder, try to solve your problem in some other way. Just think that someone else in the world probaley has it worse than you.

    Comment Hidden ( show )
    0
    0
  • manyfetishfukboi
    8 years ago

    I've had these thoughts as well. The imagination is so invigorating. After a while, though, I feel really bad about myself. It probably wouldn't be worth it to carry out with the fantasies, unless you're actually a psychopath. I'm not going to diagnose you with anything, but if you've ever stolen from someone and felt ANY remorse afterword, you will not feel great taking another person's life.

    About therapists: yeah, I don't like 'em. I don't think you have to go through everything alone, but I don't like therapists. Lucky for me, I've got a best friend whom I can talk to about anything. It's much easier when you actually connect to a person, rather than just have someone to talk to. Even someone on Reddit can be nice for that.

    There's a good chance you have these urges because of the rush it gives you. If this is the case you might try an extreme sport like Longboarding or Rockclimbing.

    Anyway, that's just my two cents. If you do end up killing someone, make sure they're an asshole who won't be missed. Cheers.

    Comment Hidden ( show )
    0
    0
      -
    • Anonymous Post Author
      8 years ago

      I always thought it was normal to think these things so I've never felt bad about it. I decided to ask here because of my friend's reaction. I generally don't feel remorse when stealing but I feel paranoid that somehow they'll find out it was me, so I reckon if I killed someone I would constantly worry that someone saw or knew I did it.

      I agree, and I'm sure if I went to therapy it wouldn't help. Yeah I guess it would be good to have someone who gets me...

      While I really do want to do some extreme sports, and have tried a few, the feeling is different from what I get from my fantasies.

      Thanks, it's rare to have someone give a mature comment like this, so it's appreciated.

      Comment Hidden ( show )
      0
      0