Is it normal i fantasize about my crush seeing me with someone else?
I have had a crush for over a year now. I guess the "normal" fantasy would be for me to fantasize about being with HIM (like touching him, kissing, etc.)
But actually, my most common fantasy is about being on campus somewhere, and have a different guy have his arm around me or kiss me while my crush happens to see us (as in, my crush would walk past me while I hold hands with this other guy).
The other guy (not my crush) is not any specific person, but kind of a made-up person with a mash-up of different characteristics. I also have fantasized about me being a somewhat different person.
I guess my question is: why don't I fantasize about holding my crush's hand, having him put his arm around me? Instead I fantasize about him watching another guy do that with me. Do I just want to make my crush jealous? But it's almost like I don't even like my crush very much, deep down, otherwise I would fantasize about him.
IIN?