Is it normal i don't feel she actually loved me?
I Am a 22 year old girl & I told my friend that I used to be close with, that I felt something that day on the beach when she said we had a connection & it was intense, kind of like romance she said! So I finally summoned up the courage after 5 long years from hiding this massive secret & told her. She said it was all real, that she did feel a connection & she does love me but its different. She also said "I can't give u my full attention, I can't give you a relationship". I was Brocken! Thing is, she says she loves me, but even if she genuinely loved me as a friend, I felt she never tried in the friendship! She lived 6hrs away with her low life druggy bf. She hardly ever text to ask how I am. In the end, I was the one doing most the texting and I was very hurt at that fact. This of course was all prior to me telling her as I told her we can't be friends anymore as I need time to "get over" her. I don't really understand her, she used to often tell me she loves me heaps, and that when we reconnected, she literally had tears in her eyes from my text ! :) we had long embracing hugs, she said she dreamt of me 2 weeks before I re-connected with her after not being friends for ages due to a fall out, and that was amazing! I felt like there was a lot of love between us even as friends, but when I'd go back home, I no longer could feel our connection because like a normal friend would do, she didn't reach out?