Is it normal i can't get over a suicide of a girl who i never met but tried to save?

I'm not sure if this is going to make you feel better or worse, but there's a really, really high probability that she was a troll. Reddit is notorious for this sort of thing.

There was someone who posted for nearly three years about finding his son inserting a hairbrush in the dog. It led to the mother accusing him instead, and eventually him being divorced and childless. It went on for years and it was all complete BS.

Now place yourself in this man's shoes. Your beloved son turns out to be a horrible, psychopathic, serial killer in the making who blames you for the dog. Your wife believes this and leaves you. Your town thinks you're a dog fucker. You've losing everything. You're doing what now, checking your Reddit and chitchatting with strangers about it all day or do you have bigger fish to fry?

It's the same with this girl. Put yourself in her shoes. Your mother is dead. Your father hates you. You're facing homelessness. Is typing up stories on Reddit really what you're up to if the purpose isn't to find a home?

Now imagine you're done with life. It's over. Things are so bad you're ready to end it all. Oh. Better say goodbye on Reddit right quick! After all, Reddit is the most important part of life.

No. Reddit would be irrelevant. If she had a bond with the people there so meaningful that she needed to consider them before ending things, she would have gladly lived with you.

I know this sounds insensitive but sadly this happens all the time and it is overwhelmingly likely she was trolling and this was always the exit plan for when it got too deep or she claimed this to make the people giving her a hard time feel like shit, without much regard for how thinking this happened would affect people like you.

Also consider how overwhelmingly unlikely it is that her entire father's side of the family would just be like "fuck this girl" after 15 years.

Is it easier to believe in an entire family of people so sociopathic or one person sociopathic enough to pull off this dark of a trolling on a site notorious for it? There's no blood on your hands, OP. I'm sorry this happened to you.

I dont understand how you could raise a girl for 15 years and then be like ok fuck you you're not mine get lost. Hopefully it was just some edgy teen making up shit. It does sound almost too sad as if it was made up. If its true that dad needs his ass beat.

Yes its normal. Even if you never met her you knew this girl.

Yes, it's normal for this to haunt you and maybe you are dealing with Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome. I hope therapy can at least help to a degree if you decide to go for it

Me being someone who struggles with suicidal thoughts on a daily basis it is really hard to hear how much a bystander struggles after someone who committed but just know that when someone is intended on killing them self and that deep in a hole no one can stop them no matter what. irrationality is one of the biggest components of actually going through with suicide.. It is no ones fault she felt that it would be better if she was gone and from what it sounded like she was suffering everyday being here on earth. My Uncle killed himself also and I know the feeling of helplessness but you have to push through.

To memory, that's the saddest post I've read here. Don't off yourself, dude. You've got parents right? It would kill them if you killed yourself. Look how much the affect of one girl who you didn't even meet effected you. One suicide knocks the wind out of myriad people.