Is it normal for me to like gothic girls?
So I'm a pretty uptight guy, never smoked, drinked, had a girlfriend or sex. No tattoos and I wear glasses. I'm just a typical nerd. But I am really attracted to gothic girls, like stoner hippie chicks who smoke, do drugs and alcohol, have unprotected sex, have multiple tattoos and some piercings, crazy hair colors, shave the sides of their head, wear combat boots and huge earrings and illuminati necklaces and crazy bracelets, stuff like that. I'm following a lot of gothic girls on YouTube and I actually noticed however that despite many of them looking "alternative" and having unconventional style, deep down they are sweet caring kind hearted and intelligent girls. Really they just say that their appearance is a form of self-expression and it has literally nothing to do with what's on the inside and what kind of people they are. And that just turned me on even more, knowing that girls like that exist who are gothic and wild on the outside but all nice and sensible on the inside.