Is it normal for a 21 yo female to be obsessed with mj when he was in the j5?

Okay hear me out. Before I start this is NOT a sexual thing. So I'm a 21 year old girl and I find Michael Jackson really cute when he was in the Jackson five. (When he sang stuff like ABC, I want you back, I'll be there, Ben etc) I also find him attractive as an adult but not in the same way as the early days. I can't help it, he is just so cute and adorable I really wanna pinch his cheeks and pat his head and hug him so bad >.< I fantasise about being in scenarios with him and write stories and draw pictures (not weird stuff) where we go on adventures and stuff and like cute pictures and I even wrote a song for him. And I often pretend he's really there and I talk to him every day. I can't talk about him in past tense either because it upsets me. But yeah I am just obsessed with him. And I watch these videos of him singing those songs and early interviews and I just feel this feeling that melts my heart like he's so cute and I want to pull him out from the screen and just hug him. I can relate to MJ on the fact we both missed out on a lot of experiences growing up. And it makes me sad when I think that he was abused by his father and how he never got to have a childhood and how he had to work from a young age. I wish I could go back in time and stop that from happening and give him back his childhood, like he could be my cute lil brother or something. Sometimes I even imagine that me and MJ are both kids again and we never have to grow up and we can play all the time and we are both happy. And no, this is not a sexual thing so please don't take it as such. Is this normal? I know it's not, but is it normal?