Is it normal find porn disgusting, degrading, wrong, and i get off on it anyway
It's recently dawned on me how fake, gross, and all around wrong pornography is. I feel so bad for the girls in the videos, because I know most of them aren't actually enjoying it at all. I can't help but think of what a shit life they must have if they have that little amount of respect for their own bodies, and I know they will most likely never know what it's like to really love someone or be loved by someone else. I'm sure some of them legitimately just straight up love having sex, plain and simple. And if they can make money that way, more power to them. But I highly doubt that's true for very many of them.
And yet, I still find myself logging on to adult websites and jerkin off just as much as I always have before I started thinking into it this deeply. I can't help it. I just find tits and asses so beautiful, especially when they're bouncing around because the girl's vagina is geting fucked, same goes for a pretty face sucking on a big dick. I feel like I'm depriving myself when I try to force myself not to watch it since I have the opportunity to. Truth be told, I don't even feel that guilty about it most of the time, I just feel as though I should feel guilty. But my realization of how gross it is doesn't stop the girls from doing what they do, so why not take advantage? That's still pretty fucked up though. It's more like I feel guilty about not feeling guilty lol