Iin? alcohol and other drugs makes me a manipulative asshole.
Whenever I smoke, drink, or induce any other foreign substance to my body I emulate behaviors that one could see as "manipulative" or "psychotic{i.e. : Showing no Empathy}.
Here's an example.
I was at my friend's apartment. He's a popular guy (Soccer Player on Campus) and has lots of girls over all the time. Whenever he throws a party I'm usually there.
As the night proceeded and I consumed a plethora of marijuana, liquor, different spirits & craft beer my emotions changed. It was like watching myself as an actor in a movie that I starred in yet I was omnipresent and complacent in all my actions.
I even out-witted a few other males who were equally if not more eligible for attention from women. I remember exclusively tearing down a man that was more attractive than me, taller, nicer teeth, and a perfect haircut by simply constructing a trap about certain socioeconomic policy & their values. It was a hot-button issue that he foolishly stated his opinion on to which I put pressure on vividly and within ear-range of many women. I'm never usually like this at all and rarely am confrontational.
I flirted with a few girls and even managed to make out with one behind closed doors. We then had sexual relations, to which I retired quite early for the night, only briefly arising to get a drink of water or use the restroom.
Normally I am completely frozen with paranoia and struggle with many issues such as social anxiety & discomfort. However, whenever I am under the influence, especially when I smoke weed, I become a totally different person and am able to adhere to an understanding of social cues & thought constructs.
IIN?