Iin. . . not to fear death or care whether there's an afterlife?

I've come close to death twice (hospitalized as a kid, then in a bad car accident as a passenger ten years later), I've talked to people who have had near death experiences, I've studied various systems of religion and spirituality, and I know what thanatology is. I've read about human responses to grief and loss. I've been to funerals. I've been through the grieving process. I understand death as a symbol or metaphor. The thing is, pretty much everyone I know sees death as either morbid and scary or interesting, as in, "Where do you think we go when we die?"

I don't particularly want to die, but I'm not afraid of death. I say that because I've come close, never intentionally. I don't really care whether or not there might be an afterlife. I don't find near death experiences fascinating. I don't watch NCIS or Dexter or read about serial killers. Life, death, heaven, hell, eternity. . . meh. I understand. I just don't care.

I'm also happy with life and I don't identify with any subculture or religion (including atheism).

I feel like some kind of freak.

Thoughts?