I would love to kill my dad. iin? he is abusive.

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My dad is a narcissistic abuser and no one will stop him. He is creepy, gets all quiet and docile when he hurts someone. Its always only family he targets. Its all secretive. Never happens outside the house. The only thing stopping me from bashing that bastard's face in, is the law. If I see that creepy psycho, all I feel is mad rage. I want to kill him. He has been violent against my brother too. Like, what idiot dad physically fights with their kids? That is disturbing. Its like he picks a kid in the house to harass. Acts twisted says shit like I love you while throwing insane tantrums, laughing, smiling and acting like he will hit you. I'm REALLY creeped out. I hate that bastard. It is sickening. I keep looking at knives, bats, or sharp objects with dreamy vengeance. The other day, I almost had the perfect chance to run him over with my car. It was hard not to do that. I wanted to reverse slam him then roll over the body a couple times, spinning the wheels to make sure.

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kingofcarrotflowers

9 years ago

How old are you and your brother Old enough to loose contact with him?

It's a last resort but my dad was abusive and loosing contact with him was the best thing I ever did,

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CheyChey

9 years ago

I understand your rage, God forgive me but sometimes I find wishing my abusive dad would just die and it makes me feel disgusting even thinking about it because in the process of battling a monster, I've become one too.

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- TheChakraMantra
  
  9 years ago
  
  I really side with this comment. It's normal to want someone gone if they hurt you and the people you love, but to obsess about killing him will make you just the same as him. Rather, you should get evidence of the abuse, then report it to the proper authorities. He'll get his fair comeuppance in jail (that is, if the system doesn't screw you over).
  
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Anonymous Post Author

9 years ago

Truth? My dad is batshit demented. I won't kill him. I would go to jail. No thanks. I'm trying to get help from people here. I found a family abuse center. My dad is beyond an asshole!!!! Beyonnnddddd. I'm getting authorities to confront him.

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- MissDethstar
  
  9 years ago
  
  I must have wrote it wrong, English is not my first language. I was mostly asking if he is beating you and your sibling badly because sometimes people get killed in a violent beating. Happy to hear you're trying to fight this the right way. I hope it goes well and you and your brother get a better life away from abuse. Just wondering though, what is your mom doing in this situation ?
  
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  - Anonymous Post Author
    
    9 years ago
    
    If he's in a rage mood, he throws things at us. I've had my hand cut when he threw a key at me. My brother had to call the cops on him once. I hate him. We all do. I forgot, he has hit my mom, a handful of times over a year. The last one, I could see him driving in his car with my mom. Throwing his usual psycho tantrum, I could see him wailing away at her, not enough to leave any marks. No proof. WTF? If I had been in that car or near him? I would have beat the shit out of him. I'm a girl and I don't put up with this shit. I have attacked him. My mom is odd. She stops me and protects him. I'm 5'6" and 117lbs. I have knocked him flat out. He's WEIRD. If you fight with him, he calms down. Its crazy psycho. I will be 18 soon. If I can leave, I will.
    
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    - Ellenna
      
      9 years ago
      
      Your mum is probably scared of him, but that doesn't excuse her not protecting her kids against his violence.
      
      Good on you for knocking him out, especially as you haven't had the example of a woman standing up to a violent man.
      
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- Ellenna
  
  9 years ago
  
  Good on you! I'm glad you've got help and I wish you well in having him stopped
  
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- Dad
  
  9 years ago
  
  Its true that there are many types of different people in the world. Some we would rather not associate with.
  Ironically it always seem to be our bosses or people in (their) power that cause us the most anger.
  Your Dad may fall into the field of good with others on his level, but bad as a person when in charge.
  
  I think if you were not under 'his' law of the house you may see him in a different light.
  
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  - Ellenna
    
    9 years ago
    
    What on earth are you talking about? That post doesn't make any sense at all, OP is asking for support, not garbage talk
    
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    - Dad
      
      9 years ago
      
      I was hinting he should move out, then hopefully not want to feel like he wants to kill his Dad.
      I plainly wrote that in a way where he should've picked it up, but now with the replies its lost.
      
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      - Ellenna
        
        9 years ago
        
        Oh so it's the responsibility of the repliers, including me I guess, that your post was misunderstood? Nothing to do with the fact that it was virtually incomprehensible?
        
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      - RoseIsabella
        
        9 years ago
        
        How about she kick her piece of shit dad out? He belongs in jail!!!
        
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  - MissDethstar
    
    9 years ago
    
    What ? Abusers can be VERY secretive and their acquaintance could never believe they are capable of doing such things. They act like that when they are in a position of power as you say, because they can get away with it. Usually people turn bad when they are in charge because they feel they can, they feel superior. Just like the OP is saying, hes bullying children !
    
    People see the abuser in a different light because he makes sure they remain in ignorance !
    
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  - RoseIsabella
    
    9 years ago
    
    It doesn't matter, an abusive asshole like that belongs in jail! OP is right to defend herself and her brother. He father is a steaming piece of shit!
    
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  - dirtybirdy
    
    9 years ago
    
    You're completely retarded.
    
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    - RoseIsabella
      
      9 years ago
      
      I agree!
      Caw caw...meow meows!
      
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MissDethstar

9 years ago

Before acting violently you should try to leave this place as soon as possible with your brother, you can't leave him with this abusive bastard. Is he preventing you from leave or is there another reason why you're still there? I believe your desire to hurt him is completely normal after what hes doing to you and your family. You don't have to live with this. Personally, i'd hurt him bad if he would truly get out of control...like if he could kill a member of your family.

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Arm0se

9 years ago

maybe you SHOULD fuck em up. Maybe not kill him, but give him a good stab in the ankles so he can't chase after you. Just make sure this is what you want before you do it; you can't undo it

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Dad

9 years ago

Not normal!
Now get to your damn room and wait for me to come up their a punish you.

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- dirtybirdy
  
  9 years ago
  
  Not funny.
  
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- RoseIsabella
  
  9 years ago
  
  Bugger off, bunghole!
  
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- Ellenna
  
  9 years ago
  
  Making jokes about child abuse IS NOT FUNNY
  
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- Terence_the_viking
  
  9 years ago
  
  AAAAAAARGH run away from PSYCHO DAD.
  
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- Arm0se
  
  9 years ago
  
  is kinda funny
  
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  - Ellenna
    
    9 years ago
    
    No it's not at all funny to anyone with any empathy for abused children
    
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omgcatz

9 years ago

My aunt is the same way and surprisingly she loved my narcissistic husband whom I dumped. She is violent and cruel, but only when nobody else is around. When visitors come she is a perfect angel and nobody believes me when I say otherwise.

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yakfrost

9 years ago

next time you get physically abused, defend yourself with lethal force

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stopandthink

9 years ago

Wanting to kill him is deeply fucked up, especially since a lot of people's fathers are worse than yours, from the sound of it.
You mentioned you have a car. That means you are an adult. Get a job and leave. Try your best to take your brother as well.

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- Ellenna
  
  9 years ago
  
  How do you work that out about other people's fathers being worse? He didn't say it was his car, maybe it was his father's or someone else's and being old enough to drive (which he didn't actually say he was!) doesn't mean he's an adult in some parts of the world.
  
  Oh, and "get a job" is that easy everywhere is it?
  
  You need to do what your own name suggests
  
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  - stopandthink
    
    9 years ago
    
    Do you not know the world you live in? There are many instances of fathers torturing their children within an inch of death, and keeping them locked up, etc.
    Even if he doesn't own a car, he must own some sort of driving license. That makes him 18 or even 21 in MOST parts of the world. Youngest I've heard is 17, which is still a young adult in many people's eyes.
    Furthermore, 16 year olds can get a job, even 15 where I live. And no, getting a job isn't rocket science if you're willing to accept anything.
    
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    - Ellenna
      
      9 years ago
      
      You have no idea of the effect on victims of family violence, it's not only children but adults (usually women) who often find it almost impossible to extricate themselves from abusive situations.
      
      I know the world I live in very well and have worked in the family violence field since the 70's and you don't know what you're talking about.
      
      Re your first paragraph, yeah I do know that, of course everyone knows that, but there are psychological ways of intimidating and terrorising people also and that's what I think OP is experiencing, which needs empathy and support, not quick fix solutions.
      
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