I wish i could go back to being who i was before

i never noticed when i changed, gradually to become the person i am now. i used to be a happy-go-lucky person, always thought positively and cheerful, a couple of years ago.
now at 18, people say that i am serious, and quiet. and i felt lonely and i never knew why i changed so much.sometimes it hurt so much, i just wannna end my life.
why do people change when they grow up?
why can't i be the person i used to be before?

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Based on 50 votes (41 yes)
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Comments ( 11 )
  • Deadly

    Hey, I know how you feel... I too went through these changes. Well I must say that you have definately changed and I don't even know you. I would advise you to try new things. Do something crazy. Realize your dreams and run towards them. You shouldn't try being who you were, just try to be who you feel comfortable being. You will once again find youself and be a happy-go-lucky person again. You just need not worry and relax. Now that you've hit a bottom that you don't like all you have to do is start over. I'm sure you have had some pain and you should put it in the past. Just remember that you should be careful and there alot of people who love you even if you don't realize it.

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  • Whitneyhouston

    Life is depressing.. Maybe you realized that it's not fun to be an adult.

    Til you're 21.
    Hang in there;)

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  • You sound depressed & I think you should speak with a DR.

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  • Vyzr

    I've changed alot too. Im unsure of wheather im happy about myself the way i am now though. But if you hadnt changed and stayed the same person you used to be you wouldnt be who you are now. If that makes sense.

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  • karmarainbow

    growing up can suck, and reality can suck too. thats normal. i would talk to a therapist. :)

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  • BOYracer88

    dont go back, go forward

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  • wisedom21

    I would talk to a doctor. Depression could play a big part in your change. I didn't feel like me, the old me, till I started taking the meds.

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  • _unReal_

    hi,,, it is normal,,, i had the same feeling; that i changed,,,,, my personality, my way of thinking, my judgments, habits & other stuff have changed in me..... I think the reason is because we r now figuring out the world and fitting in it,,, well thats how i c it,, btw im 21 now,,,,,, but plz dont be hard on urself cuz this situation is not worth it,,,, it sucks some time but u will get over it ,,,,, trust me ,,, with the time passing u will understand ur self and how u feel ,,,,,,, u will find ur peace ,,,, find happiness.. get bzy with what like, frndz and ur hobbies at this momentss,%%u060C,,,,,, ^^

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  • NMoney

    I think you're being a bit hard on yourself. Change is unavoidable in any form. You have to understand that it's not just you who has changed, but also others, the times, and the things around you. Personally, I think back to high school a lot and wish I still had some of the same friends I had back then. But then, when I give it more thought, I remember I was down on some things back then, too. It's easy to look back on things and say "Those times were really great. I wish things were still like that." The fact of the matter, though, is that things are never perfect. Nothing is perfect now and nothing was ever perfect back then. You have to find a way to make the most of the present. In the future, you'll probably look back on these present times and remember them as being not so bad. Since these times are really bothering you NOW, though, try changing your attitude around a bit. Instead of holding onto the past, put hope towards a happy future. Think about where you want to be in the future and then start doing things as soon as possible to help you get there. Doing so will help you feel a lot better, because you'll feel like you're making progress towards changing yourself into who you want to be.

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  • RocketZz

    hello,
    I think they change because they start opening up to life.. childhood's problems are easily managed by parents, and the real life adventure starts a little bit earlier, and with it people change because they are experiencing new things... I wouldn't say that you have totally changed though... I think what you're going through is a normal stage of experimentation... You are meeting new situations and your personality is adapting itself to them... anyway, there is nothing wrong with being quiet and serious, only as long as you still enjoy yourself (your way) during social gatherings,

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  • rita_skeeter

    something must of happen to make you unhappy. try remember who u were and be that person again. you need to forgive yourself and appreciate that your a good person.

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