I watch porn after starting my day with a 5 min prayer !!

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my day starts with a clean morning: take a dump,brush my teeth,get a bath and then a 5 min prayer to the almighty gods or the Universal Power( thats what i like to call Him/Her/It )

but then,afterwards, like whenever i have free time and internet access and no one at the home to bother me in the surfing, i just ....i just goto those damn porn sites,or those ones where they show erotic pics etc..sh*t like that. Then suddenly i realize that i offer prayers to the gods - and am so clean from the morning and now this sh*t!
some of my friends tell me its not good that i do both - they cancel out each other,or rather, the porn sh*t still leaves a negative mark after levelling up the prayers etc...i dunno wtf is it with me.But i just feel sometimes that its not right. someone more saintly inside tells me i'm sinning and cheating god...going to those porn sites and and jerkin off...man sh*t!!!! sh*t!!
but i don't think that way when outside my home - i mean most of the guys go like "look at that piece of hot chilly ass..definitely would like to pork her up and chew to bits man...hehe"...but not me..and i guess thats a bad thing,if not a sin - admiring someone's beauty negatively

so thats why i ask,is it normal to feel that way? i mean sexual desires and frustrations are part of our human lives. so why does god and karma should make you feel all so shameful and sinful when thinking and doing it?

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  • shade_ilmaendu
    12 years ago

    Masturbation is natural and therefore not a sin. I imagine if there is a creator (I'm agnostic) he/she/it would want us to fully use and enjoy our bodies, and sex is one of the best ways to e joy ones body. Some people even say sex and masturbation can have a religious feel to it. I think the line "you bring me closer to god" is from a dirty nine inch nails song... You get the picture.

    Celebrate life, for it's a fantastic thing. Celebrate your body, which is capable of amazing things. Celebrate your consciousness, let go of whatever is holding you back, and just focus on living to your fullest potential.

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  • PoisonFlowers
    14 years ago

    Haha your writing style really, REALLY reminds me of somebody I used to know.

    Good question. What do you think?
    Who told you that it is the Universal Power that makes you feel shameful when you go and look at porn? If you really think about it, all these sorts of morals come from the people who brought you up and what you've been told throughout your life (putting it extremely simply.) The "saintly voice" in your head is like your "elders" telling you what's right and wrong. I'm not saying that you should disregard all of your morals - not at all! - just that really, the shame and the feeling of sin around sexual desires is coming from none other than yourself, not an external force that makes it inevitable to feel that way. You can choose to change it or not. It's up to you.

    As you said, it's part of being human (unless you have no sex drive) and as long as you're not hurting people (sexual assault and crazy shit like that), what's the problem? Just like cleaning yourself and taking a dump, it's like another thing you have to take care of, right?

    When you're talking about how those guys' behaviour was akin to "admiring beauty negatively," that was just you being decent lol.

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  • Aleks85
    12 years ago

    maybe you should pray for good porn or a good orgasm silently. that might make you feel better about it.

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  • Lolafredrick
    13 years ago

    Perverted

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  • Anonymous Post Author
    13 years ago

    @poison flowers

    hey, who do you get reminded of?

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  • Cosmicgiggle
    13 years ago

    I can relate to how you feel. I remember meeting a few friends for meditation and spiritual discussion. One time, When we were through, I immediately wentbto, of all places, a porn shop with
    The theaters. When I wad done, I felt like i had tainted whatever I tapped Into during meditation. It's about timing......gone later instead of on the way he from a prayer group! I'm not too proud. Of this one...

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