I watch gore videos and get addicted for some time
So like one year ago I saw my fist execution video in which a guy got executed, it felt extremely weird and unsatisfying. After that video I saw a thumbnail of a warzone video where a head of a a guy literally exploded. I was just shocked seeing this. But in someways I just keep watching them, one more gruesome than the one before until I got to the point that I nearly had to vomit. Some of those pictures are still stuck in my head and I wish I've never watched them. In some ways I keep getting back to those videos even though I know I'm gonna regret watching those beforehand I still do it.
Does anyone experienced the same?? And is this normal?? (sorry for my english)