I was mentality damaged by my ex

I think almost everybody got damaged by an ex. My brain got totally screwed after years of hell with mine. Constant severe stress due neglect and emotional abuse plus multiple head traumas really did a number on me. I still haven't fully recovered and still have mental issues and ptsd symptoms but I will get better with time.. knowing and internalizing the science behind why some people turn out evil and looking at things from a big picture point of view also helps a lot coz you won't take it too personally and just accept that that's how life is.

Was it your first love. When I was 13 years old, I had a boyfriend. He was my first and only boyfriend. He seemed very nice at first and I was happy when he told me he liked me. We only talked over social media, and then he would act like an asshole in person. I knew it was too good to be true. Then, he asked me to take off my shirt while we were on a video call. I did the stupid thing and took off my shirt. Two days later, he asked me to take off my shirt again, I did again, and he said that he didn't want to take advantage of me. The day after, he broke up with me. I felt pretty horrible when he broke up with me. I went through a period of feeling depressed and emotionless. I kept thinking about how nice he was before we dated. I sort of wanted him back. A few months later, I was alone at recess and then he told me to unblock him from social media. A week later, I added him back. He didn't seem like himself. I was on vacation with my friends when we were video chatting and he wanted to see they. They all hate him though. He kept texting me inappropriate things. He wanted me to perform oral sex on him, and he was only interested in my body parts. He was a jerk. In a way, I guess it was good that we broke up.

I'm 19 year old girl, I was in abusive relationship for 2 years (mentally, emotionally and sexually abusive) so I can say I know something about the topic. You can come talk to me.