I was born in the wrong world

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I am currently 18. From the age of 15 and forward I have more consistently started thinking how much I don't belong in this greedy, forsaken world.
Everywhere I see rules and concepts that seems completely foreign to me. I am a gigantic nerd for fantasy, it's where I feel like I belong, where I can completely indulge myself in the stories and worlds that are dreamt up by better people than me.
I write fantasy as a very extensive hobby as well, which is why I almost fell completely into despair when I lost my computer-archive of stories.
I felt like I've lost a part of myself. I can write it all again, but it was like a part of myself had been lost, worlds both foreign and familiar to the bone to me, gone.
Every time I see a new world in fantasy movies and books, I count the people in those stories lucky that they don't have to live in our world, and pity myself for being born in the wrong one. I thought it first to be a longing to see my name on the silver screen, but it runs deeper than that. I feel different from everyone else, those who don't believe in the amazingness of fantasy, those who turn their heads away when I talk about the worlds I create or my ridiculously extensive knowledge of current worlds like World of Warcraft or LOTR. I have doing acting for 8 years, so hiding how I really feel has always been easy, but it's not easy when you realize the world is wrong for you.
I do not want to live in a world where society has full control over me, by basically forcing me to learn this in school I'll never use, where my ideal workplace is so far away, where the absolute choice of what I want to do is not free to me!
I don't belong in this world. If there was a way for me to leave this world, to abandon everything I have here; my family, my dog (though I'd prefer my dog to come with me), friends (the few I have), my house, my wealth, Everything!... I'd take it without wasting a heartbeat thinking about it! That is how much I feel out-of-place! That is how wrong the world is to me! THAT... is why I don't belong.

(Oh, and if the current reader is a god or omnipotent being of sorts, please take me to the world of LOTR before the time of Morgoth... Absolute Immortality would be nice to :-)
(Wishful thinking is good, leave me alone ;-))

Do you agree with me? 43
Are you just as displaced as me? 53
Do you Feel the same as me? 74
Is Fantasy you life? 21
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  • SapphireForget-Me-Not
    9 years ago | pl

    I don't think I was ever meant for this world either. I too wish I could go to the world I long to be in. For me, it would be Enordro. But because we can't change it, we can only live our lives the best we can.

    Maybe if we do good in this life, the lives we really want will be rewarded to us in the next life. Or, if you believe in the Multi-Verse Theory, we've always been in the worlds we yearn for and this life is all just a illusion or dream (I can hope, anyway).

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  • deepthought33
    9 years ago

    I used to think (and sometimes still do) that if a portal opened up in front of me at this very moment I wouldn't think twice about going through it and wouldn't look back.
    My whole...belief structure, for lack of better explanation, has been shaped by fantasy worlds and their heroes and I and most other normal people could never live up to those kind of expectations.

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  • Darkoil
    9 years ago

    That's why people get addicted to online rpgs.

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  • OrcWarlord5556
    9 years ago

    I feel much the same, I constantly challenge people who dignify the modern worlds accepted greed and structure, my ideal world is a much more relaxed medieval fantasy setting ( WoW, LOTR. SKyrim, Game of Thrones, ect. ) as the original WoW ad said... " A World of Honor, a World of Mystery, a World of Danger..." it is this and many other things i seek from a world like Azeroth or Middle Earth, and I too indulge in writing fantasy ( one such fantasy depicts me as an orc warlord in a world where humans in their greed and ignorance come to desolate the honor bound and somewhat barbaric lifestyle of my people, an honest representation of how i see the real world vs my ideal fantasy life )

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  • Cross456
    9 years ago

    the real world is only for some. Most of us probably hate reality. But either way, you dont have a choice. I hate this place. But I cant do a thing either

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  • Tinkerbell5111
    4 years ago

    I do feel the same. But I would feel bad leaving my family behind. However I do often visit other world's. As I am a lucid dreamer so I have vivid dreams about being in other world. When I was younger it was Disney films now it's more anime.

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  • LordDavis25
    7 years ago

    I feel the same and of there was some small chance I could be born in a d*fferent world like DanMachi or Kono Subarashii Sekai ni Shukufuku I will sell my soul for it with out thinking twice I just wish there was some way

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  • Rokaru
    7 years ago

    I really thought I'm the only one who feels the same..
    I never talk about it since people judges us way to easily not even trying to place themselves in our shoes..
    Kinda why I googled "I feel like I'm born in the wrong world"
    And thank god I found this
    My thoughts never shut up.. Also why it makes me harder to fall asleep at night
    Only thing I do is dreamt of myself in some fantasy world
    But also because of this why it's easy for me to write a script or stories..
    Right now, I'm kinda lost but still moving on without a sense of direction
    I feel like I'm in a forest.. I'm particularly good at academics but I never found my passion in anything but RPG games
    It's just that.. The world works pretty much how it isn't suppose to be... Being born to pay bills just to live, if you don't do better you'll die with what you started with..
    Is being sucked into an rpg game sounds really crazy? 'Cause it isn't to me

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