I was assaulted in jail and it ruined my life.

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My sophomore year of high school I was arrested for selling pot and adderall. I did 3 weeks in the county jail. Where I live, older juveniles are placed in the same jail population as adults. The 9th day, 2 black men attacked me. They hit me, choked me, and said they'd kill me if I didn't go with it. I think it was partly a race thing, they kept saying stuff like "you little white bitch"
The first time, I remember being terrified of how much blood there was.
It went on for about 2 hours. It took 3 days for blood to stop showing up in my shit. It happened another 2 times, but they didn't hurt like the first. I've never told anyone about it.
Since then, I'm not the same person anymore. I've become severely addicted to pain killers and I'm probably an alcoholic. I've recently started experimenting with heroin. I know it's ruining my body and might kill me, but I don't care. I'm a senior now. I used to do much better in school, but I can't focus anymore. I don't go on dates anymore. I used to be pretty chill but now I get in lots of fights. It's the worst thing that's ever happened to me and it ruined my fucking life.

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  • IMissMary
    8 years ago

    It ruined your life?

    Or

    You ruined your life?

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  • RoseIsabella
    8 years ago

    I'm so sorry that happened. I hate rapists and child molestors! I personally hope those guys die horrible deaths and suffer grave injuries to their nether regions. Bleeding heart people will think I'm crazy, but I hope something happens to all rapists where they lose their private parts. Male/female, gay/straight, old or young all rapists deserve horrific and near unbearable pain suffering for what they've done!!!

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      8 years ago

      Thank you for your empathy. The first year after it happened, I wanted to rape them to death with a rebar and murder all of their loved ones, I wanted to beat them into red liquid. I sometimes still feel it. But I resist. I don't let it control me. I hate those men more than anything, but two wrongs don't make a right. We're all human beings. No matter what circumstance, such cruelty is never acceptable. Nobody deserves this, no matter how evil and sick, it's just pointless. I want to see those two men rot in prison for the rest of their lives, but they shouldn't be raped or mutilated. It took a long time and a lot of thinking to arrive here.

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      • RoseIsabella
        8 years ago

        You sound like you have a good head on your shoulders, OP. I certainly hope your attackers rot in jail. I mean that with every fiber of my being.

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    • EXTREMEhardcoreMIDGETfightCLUB
      8 years ago

      Rape can be fun as long as you are the raper.

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      • RoseIsabella
        8 years ago

        Being a vigilant is a lot of fun!

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        • Anonymous Post Author
          8 years ago

          What do you mean by that?

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          • RoseIsabella
            8 years ago

            I'm trolling on the midget is all. Sort of suggesting people hunt rapists down to carry out justice.

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  • krssy
    8 years ago

    I'll be praying for you, that sounds so horrible. I hope that God would help you find peace within yourself and with Him. You did not deserve this and this is a horrible thing to happen to anyone. They hurt you. Please try not to worsen the damage to yourself with drugs or alcohol. It might numb the pain but it doesn't erase it. I hope this can encourage you. One verse I use to encourage myself is one where God says, "I will be with you always, until the very end of the age." and another that reminds me to, "Take heart for I have overcome the world." There are things in this life that wage war against your soul, God wants you to know that he has defeated them. Feel free to comment back :) I would love to help you in any way that I can.

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  • snarkygirl
    8 years ago

    I'm sorry to hear that. I've always said that small non violent offenders do not belong in jail especially with dangerous inmates. I suggest you get some counselling or maybe even hypnosis. And don't ever think you deserved it or it was your fault.
    Get off heroine immediately, you will end up in the ground. Maybe you've had a rough to e but you can better yourself! Get a pet it will give you a reason to focus positive attention on someone else.

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  • heroinsuicide
    8 years ago

    Im sorry. Take it from my name heroin will kill you. Put you back in jails institutions or death. Ive burried many friends im only a 21yr old girl. If it doesnt physically kill you itll kill you mentally slowly forever. So please stop. If you cant stop without being dope sick go to a detox. Get help.

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