I want to murder the girl who stole my boyfriend
okay so, when i met my boyfriend, i didn't know but he was still in contact with his ex that had moved away. when i found text msgs from her and emails i confronted him and told him it made me feel weird. he swore they were just still friends, but the way he would talk about her sometimes would piss me off. he would tell me that he was drawn to her in the first place because she was a mystery, "an enigma".... so pretty much he liked her manipulative, head games. he said, she's been to a mental hospital and put on medication and had a bad life, and her mom is horrible blah blah, he's the only one who helps her. it was ridiculous but i didnt want to make a big deal out of nothing. to make a long story short, she came back to visit her family and he ended up sneaking around and making out with her (he says that's all that happened, i guess i believe him, but who really knows right!?). After I found out i confronted her online, and she is the biggest b**ch on the entire planet. she tried to tell me that i was lieing, that he was her bestfriend and they were in love, and that i'm crazy.
So i pretty much wanted to kill her. Now a couple months passed she left and came back AGAIN and this time, he actually broke up with me to be with her. after lieing a million times about everything of course... I thought things were over so many times, gave him so many chances and he just dumped me THE DAY SHE CAME BACK. then they were walking around town, holding hands kissing on park benches. i felt like i was going insane.
Here's what a lot of you arent going to understand - a week later, he was begging for me back, and i got back with him (after about a month of talking and working through emotions). and I really think we're soulmates, there's nothing more to say on this subject cause none of you would understand.
anyways it's been a year since this all went down, and I still think about her at least once a day. I look at her facebook and nex profile pictures alot. I dream about her sometimes. But probably the most disturbing thing is - i can picture myself killing her. so intensely, every detail. i just want to hurt her so f**king badly. Im afraid if I ever see her again I won't be able to control myself, and end up doing something that I'll go to jail for.. which would suck..