I want to look like paul mccartney
I'm obsessed with looking like the young Paul McCartney.
Don't ask me why, I don't understand it either. It's bizarre. I mean, even the real Paul Mccartney doesn't look like the young Paul McCartney anymore...
But I feel so depressed every time I look in the mirror and realize that I don't really look like him. It's like getting punched in the gut. Sometimes I take pictures of myself and compare them to ones of him... I fantasize about getting a haircut like his and people calling me Paul Mccartney. I just like looking at his face, his clothes, his attitude... I just feel drawn to him for some reason. I just like looking at him and imaging that it's me.
It's not like I'm some weird obsessive maniac or anything... I have a fairly normal, though lonely life. I have a loving family, I'm fairly young and I have my whole life ahead of me.
But for years I have been very depressed, and... I just want to be this man so badly. You have no idea how badly. But I'd never get plastic surgery, that would be ridiculously creepy. I just wish I understood my feelings.. I have tried ignoring them, but it's too strong. I hope it'll just go away. I'm too embarrassed to tell anyone about it, not even a therapist.
So yeah, I'm just a generally normal teenage girl... who secretly wants to be Paul McCartney. *shrug*