I want to keep my own sexuality in private with someone whom i would trust
From what I've witnessed, it seems like to bring out one's own sexuality publicly is now a new social norm for adults.
By bringing out the sexuality, I mean like showing off the body sexually, and acting like some smooth seductress, femme fatale or like some trashy ghetto ratchet. Pretty much sexualizing yourself.
I am an over 18 year old girl, and I am very comfortable with my own sexuality, but I don't want to bring out my own sexuality publicly. I just want to keep my own sexuality in private with someone whom I would trust. I do not feel like bringing out my own sexuality at like Instagram or some other public place.
I also don't really want to use accessories, clothing or makeup that are said to be something that enhances and brings out something related to a woman's sexuality, even if they wouldn't be trashy nor extremely lewd in a certain way. And even when I am having sex, I still don't feel like putting on things that are supposed to enhance a woman's sexuality, such as some erotic lingerie, porn makeup, etc.
There may be some BDSM stuff at times though, but not really some erotic lingerie or porn makeup stuff. I find that kind of stuff too creepy and somehow materialistic. I also don't ever want to fake my own behavior for the person I am having sex with.
I just want to be myself. I want to keep my own sexuality in private with someone whom I would trust, and just live my adulthood my own way.
What being an adult means to me is to just be physically mature and able to do things that have an 18+ age limit and be responsible and not commit any serious crimes. But for many people, it seems like to be an adult is only all about sex and acting like porn stars or something. I find it creepy. And I'm not even Christian at all, and also not a follower of some other religion that have some strict rules regarding sexuality. I just don't feel like sexualizing myself to everybody in the world.
I've also seen how this (possible) new social norm is encouraged by left wing people, especially by feminists to women, and this is one reason why I'm kind of scared of leftists. I even encountered 4 feminists who claimed that I should show off my own body so that I can get "empowered". Honestly, when they told me that, I got a very disgusting feeling. I saw them as like the same types of people like the pervs that ask random girls for nudes.
I adore the social norms for adults that existed back in the 30s or 40s. Back then, the social norms for adults were about being polite and modest. Now it seems like to sexualize yourself is a social norm for adults.
So, is it normal that I just want to keep my own sexuality in private with someone whom I would trust?