I want to curl up in a corner and die
You know when sometimes you find a dead spider all curled up in a dusty corner somewhere. Thats what i want to do.
Basically i have already been moving in that direction in recent years. After college i moved around a bit and now i am living on my own in a lonely expensive apartment, I have zero friends, zero hobbies, zero goals, i suffer from soul crushing boredom, anxiety, depression, and feelings of inadequacy