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so i want to be autistic because i feel sorry for people whom have autism, i would like to become one of them,just to see how being autistic is like, is it normal?
I can give some insight into this topic.
Everyone with autism experiences it differently because it is a vague spectrum or diagnoses, so while I cannot speak for everyone with autism I can describe my own experience.
I'm diagnosed with Asperger's which is basically mild autism. I have pretty good social skills for someone with aspergers but I have also been to a lot of social skills training as well. My comprehension of emotions and intangible concepts seems as bad as someone with severe autism but I have a very high IQ.
Autism does have it's benefits which are also different for everyone and I will explain some of mine later.
I do not think anyone without autism can understand what it's like. Even professionals and parents do not. Someone may have years of experience living around autistic people but without experiencing it yourself you cannot know what it's like.
My senses are distorted, and quite mildly compared to other autistics. I would best describe my senses as being blurred which can make it hard to understand what people are saying if they don't speak clearly. I've gotten pretty good at faking that I know what's going on.
My sense of time is blurred as well. I don't know how to explain this well but my experience of time seems different than what people describe. It's like I'm in another dimension but we can still see each other if that makes any sense.
I do not understand people and we often don't even understand each other either. I've been to autism support groups and we will often just argue when put in a room together.
I did horribly in school despite having a high IQ. I did not graduate high school until I was 22. I have not been able to hold a job for long and do not do well in relationships or living with others either.
It's like being an alien in a foreign world.
Because I am very high functioning I can blend in with the humans pretty good. I'm don't think anybody notices I'm different until they get to know me for a while which also makes things hard because they expect me to do things like they do, which never goes well.
When people explain to me how they think it is just as confusing to me as I am to them. I relate to humans no more than I do any other animal except that we can communicate with each other better.
Like most autistics I also have co-morbid "mental illness" that seemed to get worse around puberty adding to my distortion to the world everyone else is in.
Autism does have it's benefits for some people.
I can play songs on the piano just from hearing them, I have excellent music abilities as well as understanding of physics and creativity. I have photographic memory and my imagination is endless and even my dreams are more intense than what others describe. Every time I sleep I have other lives I go to which are literally just as real as this one, although this one doesn't seem so real.
I do believe dreams are no more or less real than this world and are actually projections into other universes that most people seem to mostly forget.
If I could get rid of my autism, I honestly would not, because I wouldn't want to lose the things I understand that other people do not, and I wouldn't want to be like everyone. The most disabling part is that it is perceived as a disability.
It has been a gift and a curse for me.
I think you implied 'no', but I wanted clarify because it's an interesting point: Do you get along with understand other autistic / Asperger's people better than other's?
I understand their situation better than most people probably do but I don't seem to have a bond with them anymore than I do with anyone else.
There's a girl who always hangs out at the same place I do and I recently found out she also has aspergers. I never noticed until I overheard her tell someone but I always thought she seemed standoffish to me, like I will say hi and she will just grumble and turn around to walk away. I thought I hope I don't seem like that but I probably do. I've heard a lot of people describe her as rude.
Maybe if you phrased it like:
"I'd like to try living with autism for a week, just so I could experience it first-hand and therefore better understand it."
This wouldn't sound so dumb.
Wait, I'm going to get out my chain saw and remove my legs so I can see what it's like to be a cripple. Then people will feel sorry for me, too.
Well, you're a success story. You're obnoxious and I wish your parents had hit you more.
You know stuffs like these might sound cool to kids like you and all, but only sufferers knows the real pain of having to deal with such things.