I want sex but i'm virgin
Hello,
I'm a 19 year-old girl and I'm a virign.
You may wonder where is the problem because of course there is no problem to be 19 and still virgin.
It had been okay for me for a while but since some times- possibly more than a year ago- I started really wanted to have sex, not because of peer pressure, but because I feel I need it, you know it is like pulsions, well I'm sure you see what I mean.
That's how I ended up thinking my first time would be better if I had it with someone I know (or I begin to know, because I don't think I could do it with a total stranger) even if I don't love him.
I'm a responsible girl but I lack sex and the fact I'm virgin is a problem because I don't really dare to have sex with someone as I never lived this first time and I don't know how it's going to be.
Is it normal to think of my first time as something lacking love?
Is it normal that I don't want to wait too much anylonger?
And another question, you may think it's stupid but I thought of doing that while being drunk, or at least just a little tipsy in order to avoid the pain and to DO it. I know I have a particular view of my first time but to my mind it's like a handicap, I think once it's done, I will be able to enjoy sex easily. I know it sounds rather stupid and dangerous but I know how I am when I drank a little, I still pay attention to cars around me and to people so I don't think I will forgot Do you think that's a really bad idea or could it really help me to get rid of that?
Ps: I'm sorry for my English, that's not my mother tongue, so feel free to correct it if you want, it will help me anyway!
Thanks for you answers
Okayd'acc :)