I want sex but i'm virgin

Hello,
I'm a 19 year-old girl and I'm a virign.
You may wonder where is the problem because of course there is no problem to be 19 and still virgin.
It had been okay for me for a while but since some times- possibly more than a year ago- I started really wanted to have sex, not because of peer pressure, but because I feel I need it, you know it is like pulsions, well I'm sure you see what I mean.

That's how I ended up thinking my first time would be better if I had it with someone I know (or I begin to know, because I don't think I could do it with a total stranger) even if I don't love him.
I'm a responsible girl but I lack sex and the fact I'm virgin is a problem because I don't really dare to have sex with someone as I never lived this first time and I don't know how it's going to be.
Is it normal to think of my first time as something lacking love?
Is it normal that I don't want to wait too much anylonger?
And another question, you may think it's stupid but I thought of doing that while being drunk, or at least just a little tipsy in order to avoid the pain and to DO it. I know I have a particular view of my first time but to my mind it's like a handicap, I think once it's done, I will be able to enjoy sex easily. I know it sounds rather stupid and dangerous but I know how I am when I drank a little, I still pay attention to cars around me and to people so I don't think I will forgot Do you think that's a really bad idea or could it really help me to get rid of that?

Ps: I'm sorry for my English, that's not my mother tongue, so feel free to correct it if you want, it will help me anyway!

Thanks for you answers

Okayd'acc :)

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  • jensapa

    I was drunk my first time. It does make u feel more relaxed. U should look for a casual relationship so u can get comfortable with 1 person. One night stand are crap.

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  • honeybeee

    Find a guy with small penis so it won't hurt as much xo

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  • chaosdragoon1

    It normal to worry about it. But don't get drunk on your first time. You'll regret it.

    And first times aren't always painful. If the guy knows what he doing, it can be painless and very enjoyable as if you've been having sex for years.

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