I want my wife or girlfriend to beat me

I am 25 years old,Male.I want to know what is wrong with me.I want a gf or wife who can dominate,punish,beat and caning me. she have to control whole of my life.She can give me every order.So i will follow her rule and if i will break the rule she can punish me.I don't mean too strong,hot such as bdsm,fatish.no nedd to take off dress both.i want just caning for punishment from my wife or girlfriend when i make mistake.Like a punishment a elder sister to younger brother.i want like this girl in my real life.can i get or not?i don;t know it is a sexual or not.i think it is not normal.plz tell me what is wrong with me.