I want my life messed up
I have a very poor relationship with my mother and we just do not get on no matter how hard I try, so I want to mess up my life real bad so I can blaime it on her. I know it sounds dumb and selfish and what not, but I don't see what else to do with myself. Do I need some sort of councelling or do these feelings dissapear as I get older (current age 18)