I want a year off. iin?
Sorry it's long! :(
At the age of 13, during summers every weekday, I used to go to my Mother's work and help her there. It basically felt like a work day but I didn't really do much other than file and walk around but it was horribly boring. Then, at 16, she made me legitimately work there part time. From then on, every summer, I worked there.
I'm nearly 25 now, went to college for graphic design but lost passion as pulling 24hrs to finish all the projects/freelance work every week was killing my sleep. It just was too much work, I had no time to live. I still work the same part time job but for the past 3 years, I work year round 5 days a week. Because of insomnia, I only get 3 hours a night on weekdays but weekends I get more like 6. I'm trying to get a night job for now because I just feel like I'm dying every day and I sent in some applications. I know if I had just had a few months off, I could feel so much better but that's never happened yet and I just don't see it as fair.
Anyway, everyone around me took a year off after or before college and never worked under age 21. I'm literally the only one of my siblings AND the only one of my friends who worked this much. The most I had off in the past 3 years was 2 weeks and I'm just so sick of this. I can't keep getting up at 7 am with no sleep for the same job I had since I was a kid and I feel I need a vacation. They don't like me taking off more than 2 weeks at my work so I'm stuck with taking a few extra days here and there which gets me nowhere. The 2 weeks I take off is usually during Christmas, so there's still lots of shopping and traveling. I need 2 weeks of relaxation but I guess I was horribly evil in my past life. I do fill out applications for full time jobs and went on several interviews but no luck.
Is it weird that I just want to get a night job, save up from that and take a year off? I feel I deserve it. I'm just not happy and I have no energy, ever. I can't even hang out with anyone anymore and I'm depressed.