I want a relationship with an older woman
I'm an 18 year old virgin, male. I'm attracted to older women, though not exclusively, and fantasize about being "adopted" by one as a student and lover. Someone like Susan Sarandon in Bull Durham or a younger version of Maude. I would love so much for someone like that to rescue me, teach me how to live in this world. I'm aware the word "adopted" gives the whole thing a Freudian spin, and I guess I am fantasizing about a surrogate mother type character, but I would love it so much.
I live with my grandparents: I'm unemployed, afraid to drive, afraid of being around people. I never go out and have no life or friends. I feel so trapped.