I wan to die

should i kill my self.

i had wasted my life and denied my most desires(to protect my true feelings) all cause of social anxiety.

i have no future,i have major personal problems.

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  • disthing

    Up to you.

    We can't help you decide. It's a personal decision, the burden of responsibility is yours. Why should we be the authors of your fate? We are a bunch of strangers who don't know you.

    Talk to the people who care about you, who you care about. Talk to qualified professionals.

    Some links to visit:
    http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org
    http://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help-you/what-speak-us-about/i-want-kill-myself
    http://www.moodjuice.scot.nhs.uk/shynesssocialphobia.asp

    But remember, it's an irreversible act. Any chance of finding some hope, happiness and meaning will be lost. That's the risk you take; missing out on the entire universe, forever.

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    • But remember, it's an irreversible act. Any chance of finding some hope, happiness and meaning will be lost. That's the risk you take; missing out on the entire universe, forever.

      i though that and came to the conclusion that i have already lost hope,i'm 25 been wasting 10 years of my life cause of hoplessness i have nothing to show for my life,and not planing on changing my mind and emotions are so missed up.sense i been 15 i did nothing but stay in the house never had a education a car a job a house a girl friend and im a very handsome guy girls like me but i denie them i suck at life and i made a decesion.

      i'ma be hopeless all my life.if im dead im not missing anything really.but just the wish that i did't had to be hopeless.

      do u understand not even god can fix me(at lease my god)

      i had went to chruch i had went and seen joel osteen and joice myer but no change.i have prayed.theres no hope either way.

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      • watdoino

        Sorry for interrupting. But please don't do it. Just one of these days I was thinking about it too. I glad I never went through it. Every day is a battle but it is pleasurable to win even the little battles. Little by little you can make yourself become someone that you can take pride in. Stop thinking about the past. If I told you my story. Mate, I have done little since high school. Lost 6 years myself. But that is in the past and there is nothing I can do about it. What I can do is live in the now and make today worth it. I don't want all this suffering to build up to nothing. I want to be someone who overcame all the odds. I can be that person and so can you. Don't give up, if life is tough you have to be tougher than her. Send me a message if you want to, we can talk. If you think no one cares, I do. I know I'm just someone on the internet, but I genuinely do not want anyone to do such a thing.

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  • watdoino

    You seem to be depressed. Depression makes your mind unclear. Makes you see only the bad side of things and think that there is no hope for you. I know it because I'm also depressed. I thought many times of killing myself. But how would it help? If there is no afterlife, than there is only nothing. You can't be happy, you can't be sad. If there is an afterlife, then only more suffering would result. Either you would be punished by God, or the karma would make a next life miserable. It's just not worth it. Being alive, being here you have the possibility of happiness.
    Everyone has problems! True happiness doesn't come from external things. It comes from states of mind. Keep a peaceful state of mind, then nothing can reach you. Haven't you seen people who are absolutely poor, sick, alone, affected by awful tragedies, yet they have this joy of life? And on the other hand, how many beautiful, rich, famous people go into drugs, kill themselves? Little problems seen with a negative mind appear huge, and big problems seen with a positive mind aren't even problems, just facts of life.
    Really, really try and shake things up. Do what(s)aint said. When you're feeling better start meditating, it calms you. If you're still not feeling good, then see a doctor. Depression is a treatable disease.

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    • i mite have more of a better chance in my next life then this one.i mite be treated better and be raised by good people.cause this life is helpless i wish i could live again as the same person just be born with a different family.

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      • watdoino

        You sound exactly like me a while ago. My family sucks too. But here is the thing about being born again: it can easily be worse. There are so many things we take for granted. You're in a computer so that probably means you have a house, something to eat, water. You might think 'so?'. Well many people don't even have that. And in the next life it could be you and me. I say let's live this life we have as good as possible. That increases the chance of a good afterlife and if there is none at least we will die happily and not with dark feeling in our heart.

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        • thanks for the compassion.through all i been through at lease i still have my heart,and its a good one,thanks for reminding me of that.and i hope you find endless wisdom and happyness as you clime up the latter of lfie.cause we both deserve it!!!

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          • watdoino

            Oh man, I'm so glad you answered. My biggest reward is that you didn't went through it. Keep on being you, you're already a good person. If thoughts like these come around again, remember they will pass and the problem will also pass eventually. Thank you for you kind wishes, I wish you the best as well. Take care!

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  • (s)aint

    Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

    The only one who can work with your anxiety is you, maybe you need some push from a doctor and medication too but here's a tip before you do any of that or kill yourself:

    Start to exercise regularly and eat healthy, then pursue a hobby that interests you and keep this up for 2-3 months and then tell me you aren't feeling at least a little bit better.

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    • read what i just post above.

      i tried to do things that make me happy but really they dont give me any courage what so ever.

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      • (s)aint

        Church and go see some people?

        Also ... You do NOT have any guarantee for a second life. THIS is all you have and you should not throw that away.

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  • noid

    Have you tried antidepressant medication for social anxiety? It can really help. I did and it made my life better. Until I messed it up in other ways

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  • Hello. I have a feeling you may be the same OP I am talking to on the other post.

    Either way I will try to give what advice I can.
    I don't agree with the arguments many people use against suicide, such as it being a permanent solution to a temporary problem, because while that is often true, it's kind of a fuck you towards anyone with a permanent problem. Crisis lines and councilors are often very unhelpful and can even sometimes be the opposite of help to someone with serious issues. Especially if the therapist has not been through the same thing.

    Some things I can comment on suicide though because it has effected me. I lost a very close friend to suicide in 2011. I knew him since childhood and his death effected a lot of people. I have heard stories of suicide causing a contagious reaction because it makes those close to them question if life is even worth living.

    It's true some people live their whole life never feeling joy. It's true some people suffer their entire life. I definitely think the negativity in life highly outweighs anything that's ever good but that doesn't mean they're aren't good things as well.

    It's also true that we don't seem to have a written future. I doubt anyone can truly know what will happen next. Some people who are billionaires or even kings lose everything. Some people who are terminally ill and homeless win the lottery the same day a cure is found.

    I don't know why we're here, but we are so why not do what we can with what we got. I've wondered myself if this reality we're currently in is where life is incarnated as a punishment for something done elsewhere like some sort of hell, but if this is indeed hell then why not try to make it a better place while were here instead of escaping into the unknown. It's not like were stuck here for eternity anyway so what's the rush?

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    • (quote) It's not like were stuck here for eternity anyway so what's the rush?

      that part really got me thinking cause either way we gonna die so what's the rush.

      if we gonna die either way then we mite as well do what ever good we can to/for the world.cause only are actions effect's others and reality even after we die what we done/left behind is being build upon.

      if i live once why live a selfish life when really im just bringing everyone else down.and in the end i leave hurt full people,even people i destroyed.

      im not a selfish person im just saying living a selfish life in this life/world is not really smart at all wile the world is all ready going through hell.

      we should all grow and help other's so that we can leave inspiration for other's and give other's meaning and belive to move on with life.

      what i'm saying

      we should help each other to grow.

      i always though of life as this.

      i'm not here to be my self but to become more then what i came here as/to be.

      please respond i would love to hear what you have to say about this.

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      • It seems you are thinking more positively now. We should help each other grow and inspire people. Suicide does not help anybody and only inspires sadness. There is already plenty of that.

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  • searchy

    http://isitnormal.com/story/why-do-girls-act-like-this-when-180507/
    The person in the above post has the same problem as you. Maybe you two should have a talk.

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  • braintrip

    Here.

    http://www.4-lane.com/supportchat/pages/suicidechat.html

    Chat with people on their about your thoughts. Just like disthing said, we have no clue as to why you want to & we're just a bunch of strangers. Consider talking too someone IRL or on that suicide chat ^^^^ .

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  • handsignals

    Sharks need to eat, you want to die...you do the math.

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