I value the lives of others and would give my life for anyone

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i have no problem giving my life for something but if you try to take my life i get very deffensive and will kill if i have to.. i have no point to live except for the purpose of others i have no respect for the people who gave birth to me but i will give my life for them as well. i dream of what it will be like to die and my life goal is to be a funeral director. i already know how to embalm and fix up bodies to the point that i can take a shotgun suicide and make it resonably presentable for an open casket. i have lived my life with one thought in mind am i going to have to die today. and i know 6 differant martial arts so that i can protect others and live pretty much whithout fear of being killed myself i just want to know if being willin to give my life for others because i have no value for myself is normal and yes i have been to therapy over this because i myself see this as a problem and after 17 i have givin up on therapy is there any help for me or constructive thing that i can do other than go into a professional such as a cop or firefighter because although i dont have a problem with death i dont think that i could bear to acknowledge that there could have been a way to save someone that died someway that i could have stopped but wasnt able to...

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  • reallyconfused
    12 years ago

    You're full of it.

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  • nadabeard
    13 years ago

    My recommendation, speaking from experience, is to do LSD a few times. If you're anything like me, you'll stop dwelling on death and start dwelling on life. Don't worry man, it's a stage a lot of us go through. You're not alone.

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  • mirelurker
    14 years ago

    Just bloody do it already.

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  • id41695
    14 years ago

    Your problem is that you don't have anything to live for... but mostly that you don't have anything to believe in. Without this there is no reason to live. This is why people put their faith in the pursuit of security, pursuit of wealth, well-being of others, God, etc., etc. It gives them something to work for and a point to live... you simply have no point. Find one.

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  • insognity
    14 years ago

    It seems like you don't have any reason to live so instead you try to keep living by living for others .. try to get some help..

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  • [Old Memory]
    14 years ago

    I don't think these professions would want someone so obsessed and suggest you go back to therapy. If it wasn't working before, try someone else.

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    • smooth100s
      14 years ago

      yah i know and i know i have a problem thanks for the advice but therapy is just a thing for people who dont know they have a problem that the phycologist can make them believe they have any number of problems that will be only fixed with that "one"more visit. its a crutch for people and after taking 4 years of phych i know its not realy but still my opinion still is mine. but everyone just tells me to go to therapy and i have but they cant help me ive tried hypnosis and several other things nobody can find a cause and so they simply turn to saying its just me or its just a fase but its been this way for my whole life (or as far back as i can remember) oh and another reason those departments wouldnt want me is because theyd see me as a liability

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      • PoisonFlowers
        14 years ago

        Well, I didn't know what advice I could give you before(that would be different to "go to a therapist"), so I didn't reply.

        I don't know how helpful this will be to you, but it's something I read about a while back. You might find it of interest:

        http://ieet.org/index.php/IEET/more/kuszewski20091117/

        I may not even really apply to you, but still.

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        • IDVML
          14 years ago

          This is a subject that came into my attention too. I don't value my life enough and that finally explains why I don't care much about hygiene, weight loss or at sometimes embarrass myself in situations that most other people would die out of shame. But I didn't went too far thinking about giving my life for someone else.

          Maybe we are asking the wrong question. You might know that if we were living in a society that this is considered normal then you wouldn't even worry about it. You wouldn't even think a tiny about it. Also, an alternative is to use it in a way that feels "normal" for a society (you already said it, firefighter, policeman, soldier). It's already great that one can be free of that fear that scares most people, the fear of death. It never touched me (but what scares me is the possible pain during the process that brings death).

          To go back to the subject. You could try to ponder on this. Ok, you don't value your life but why do you care? Why is there something in your mind, maybe some ethical thing that tells you this should be a problem? I keep asking myself similar things. About our ethics. As long as it doesn't harm anyone else it's ok. You can live with this and use it in a dangerous job that most people would be afraid of. Maybe you could visit the therapist if you wonder. But keep in mind that some things we thing as being problems may be not (and also wonder, TO WHOM is it a problem?).

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