I thought things will turn out right, i thought wrong

Reality is not what you think. If exactly all humans believe/think it that doesn't make it true. Reality is based on the senses, there's no escape from such a reality, everybody's a child, a fool and a screaming no-fun gorilla except for me. I don't serve the angry mob, and I certainly don't cater to true blue Aussies and any patriots. By fixing the problem with Australia I thought people will class me as a hero, I thought wrong. And by doing things literally I thought people will see the reality of me literally, I thought wrong. And I thought in reality it's about waking up to smell the flowers, well I woke up and smelled the flowers alright, then hateful people started calling me an idiot, oh yeah it's Australian to be angry and an arsehole and insult people and call them names and want to kill them, so screw Australia, they're all convicts sent in the swamps of New Zealand. And furthermore I used to think being different was wonderful, more fun and everybody will have fun with me, that I'm going to get a girlfriend despite people seeing me as no man whatsoever, what kind of a man shocks people and acts weird? It's certainly a very quirky man! I see I never had a real girlfriend and the romance was never the real thing, and I want the real thing, but if I don't act like a regular person now they'll call me nice and won't bother to f*** me, I get lip service from women, and I thought I was sexy, that women love a man who's fresh and original in a way that nobody has done it before. Sex is not fricking nice! I was living in a fantasy world, that's when I was 13-19 years old, and in my early adulthood as real as it all looked to me it's a fairy tale, it's a fantasy world I imagined myself to be in by imagining I'm in a pearl city of royalty, I bloody well wasn't in there in real life! I stopped imagining things a long time ago, those so-called fantasies and nobody believes me became real life and you know what real life is like with me, do you think those bright colours and being a magical man is fictional? It's real! Do you think in a world where I don't fit in all this is a fantasy world? When I think something there's a block in my subconscious mind that stops things from going right, it won't allow me to think my way into reality, I have to sense it, I have to see and touch it, not imagine it, not think it, not have ideas, but real life. I know my differentness gets ignored on this ridiculous website but I'm rare, and when I'm normal it's a celebration of being blissfully normal. The people writing stuff on here are funny, they say silly, often childish things, and they're all rational adults. I think the normal thing is a joke and nobody's medicating me for my differences, it's been put on hold for the time being and the angry mob is getting madder and madder complaining about me but I'm not some business or product to please you, I'm a person, I do things despite your wanting to drive a metal nail in my heart, but I see Jesus never existed, he was an invention made to serve me, to please me with religious bullshit, religion is put there for you, and only you, because poor suckers like you are falling for it, they're making money off you. Do you think normal people are wise the way they go to church with profound shit, show some love and bereave the dead? It's a load of shit! Like dying on the cross, you can't see it's frogshit? It's bloody frogshit! Killing an innocent man, he died for your sins, what a load of shit! They do crap like that to make money off you poor suckers, it's been cooked up by the religion industry. If you hate things that are crap, then stop eating McDonald's, Burger King, and stop buying Fab, Surf and other crappy devices, and don't wear soap or Dove beauty bar in the shower, it's shit! Instead of wearing any of that in the shower, try wearing shower gel, soap makes you itchy and smells like toxic chemicals, not like flowers, it doesn't bloody well smell pretty with that mixture of smelly skin with soap, it's normal and you stink, try putting on mint shower gel or perhaps a clear one, not soap, and you don't need spray deodorant, it stinks like a strong chemical smell, and when you put on roll on deodorant make sure it's mild and barely scented, Dove is a good one, along with its body wash, but in all honesty most of that stuff you get made in a fancy way is shit! They're selling crap to you and what you need is quality, you need better cleansers in the shower, you don't need that smelly animal fat, salt and acid on your body, soap tends to burn. I used to think soap's not smelly, it's smelly! It smells like salt, beef fat and acid, it stinks! Soap is made of animal fats and acid! You don't need anything non-vegetarian and how normal it is to constantly eat meat and people think that's good, come on! At best it's very average. Therefore I used to think things would go right acting weird, I thought wrong!