I think that i hate my older brother
I have always had some sort of issue with my older brother, and I know it's not right. When we were younger and were going somewhere I would make sure to walk faster than him and then swear at him because he was slow. Like, sometimes he makes some food for me and if he for example mashed the potatos, I would make sure to make him feel bad by saying that I won't eat it and then go to my room eventhough I know it hurts him or makes him cry a bit. Sometimes I would actually do it on purpose, just to make him cry. I get aggravated whenever I see him and I think that I really hate him for no reason. I literally want to see him suffer. Is that normal?