I think ive got mental health problems
ok first im 22 male aries, i live with my family....
my problem is that i think im tree different people ive heard if you think you are you cant be is this right?.... im thinking of getting help but dont want to waste time if im just being stupid and its just normal to be like this
person number 1
at home i dont say a word im really quiet cant even keep eye contact with my family or anyone that comes around to see my mum or stepdad, i stay up stairs in my room i only come down for drink and food, i can go days without talking to my mum which has made her think im super shy ive over heard my stepdad saying i must be gay i think of killing myself and day dream about the worst and sick ways i could die its like as soon as i enter the house my mind changes! i tend to talk to myself and sometimes forget im talking to myself and not a real person.
(about a year ago)
my mum saw me walking around the garden with my rifle and 2 knifes arging with myself a few weeks later i stood in a river up to my neck to think things over, back then i was taking a class drugs so i thought that was just normal i then stopped taking drink and drugs a person like me shouldnt drink...
person number 2
if im out with friends im loud,funny will do anything for them, people who first meet me tend not to know what to think... like if im drunk or really like this normally, i even go down town sometimes (not much) on my own and met new people and normally have a even better night out, im heart of the party! people can come to me when there low and i can cheer them up only if thay knew my problems maybe thay wouldnt want to know me? maybe even be shocked..
person number 3
at work im down in the dumps i hate my life im very low and dont really want to talk to anyone yet within a few secs i can go from this to loud and happy and making jokes of my work mates and say what i think without a care in the world,the people i work with say i cant be right im so unstable one thing to the next... pasing up and down like a animal
do i need help maybe i live inside my head to much and is why ive sat at home and writen this if someone asked me who i was i really wouldnt know ive just always thought im 3 different people if you asked 3 lots of people what i was thay would say 3 different things maybe ive wasted my time writing this and i should just go on? i dont think i can handle this kind of live style anymore, it would be better to die and come back as someone else
thanks for your time in reading this...