I think im going retarded

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Ive had anxiety and depression for a while and now i feel like im just going stupid. Like litterally when people talk to me i wishso much i new what to say ,but i dont .like a person could be like dude my boyfriend just dumped me and blah blah blah blah or anything and litterally my mind is like _________________ and i justfeel shitty and like my head alwayshurts like its not a normal headache. Ok well i guess not always but it hurts quite alot. And its like only one part of my head and sometimes itll pulse. Idk im not suicidal or anything like im to scarred to commit it and i would just feel like a coward ,but i was hopping for the world to end on the 21st and i always just wish i was dead. Like i litterally feel alone in this. I dont even think its social anxiety anymore like yeah i guess its kimda there but i litterally dont know what to say mot cause i think people will think im stupid but because my head is literally ________ and yeah fml

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  • Shrunk
    11 years ago

    I'm like that too. Even about the one side of head pain and pulsing, but I think those are migraines... could also be related to the stress of anxiety. My mind would go blank when put on the spot, nowadays I only get through it by acting like i'm a character in a tv show and it's just part of a scene... In those situations it was almost like i went outside of my mind, watching the trainwreck, but now i'm outside my mind watching it as a tv show...heh, hard to explain, but anyway, it could depend on your age. I seem to have gotten a bit better now, but also i am on medication for anxiety disorders, maybe that would help you too, it also seems to have alleviated the migraines.

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    • Jpoe
      11 years ago

      i feel like nothings real too! like i cant even get myself to believe reality shows are real anymore. and like ill look at tv shows and im like ok just see how they talk and do what they do. but i just CANT! like gahh uts so irritating. Im 17 years young. Im preying to GOD this is just a phase and that by this year ill be free from it. like two years is just like fuck i dont wanna be this way anymore. i want to have friends and live life normally without fearing that people will talk to me.

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  • Short4Words
    11 years ago

    You need to go on vacation. I've been there, feeling like absolute scum. Couldn't even bring myself to mutter something worth hearing. Let myself waste away until the point that I really felt like I was just dying. It's a bit of a blur but I started seeing a therapist right after that point and began to realize what I actually needed in my life. It turned out to be people. I live my life now to make connections with people, to help them. I think you need a new passion, or something. Something to get through the day. Something to make life worth living again because honestly, the worst thing you can do is make a long term decision when you're in a place like this. When I was, I forgot a lot of things that made this world good, and I convinced myself I'd never find it again and I'd just be miserable, and from that, I pretty much conceited defeat but I was wrong.

    I hope my point is clear enough, get up and fight for it man, do something. Go to a therapist, go outside just smile at somebody or something.

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    • Jpoe
      11 years ago

      gahh I wish! im jobless 17 and my parents are strict as fff. same here dawg, like i cant even speak out of my ass anymore :/ and like I really dont have much to be depressed i guess but shit. like this has brought me down alot like omg. yeah i need people in my life but i just dont want to seem like that akward chick you know ? i just dont know what to do everything i wanted to do seems impossible now. i wanted to be a dancer but never tried out for my schools dance team and well honestly i dont feel like i even know how to dance anymore, i wanted to learn to play the guitar that went down the drain too and im not interested in sports other than wrestling but im 4'11 and weight 110 pounds) thats exactly how I feel!! ive been like this for about almost two years and im just tired of feeling this way you know ?

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      • Short4Words
        11 years ago

        You're young, you still have lots of time. I want you to be honest, how deep to your insecurities go? Because in the end, I never valued what I had to say and therefore I thought I had nothing to say. But mundane conversation happens all the time, I'm sure you're a more thoughtful person than you give yourself credit for.

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        • Jpoe
          11 years ago

          what do you mean how deep are my insicurities? like im pretty insicure. like i guess i cold say sometimes i dont like anything about myself and i feel like im no good at anything. like i dont even know why my boyfriend is still with me. but i really feel like my head is just hollow with nothing. like I dont even feel school smart anymore.
          what does mundane conversation mean ? i hope so i keep telling myself its just stage and i want it so bd to go away

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          • Short4Words
            11 years ago

            I really think you should see a psychologist. I wish I knew exactly what was going on but I don't. I mean severe depression will make you a bit numb-headed. You are not getting dumber that part is a phase, once you start becoming more active and positive you'll be thinking like normal again, but you do need help. I saw a therapist, and what I found was that I really needed to focus on making connections with other people, another thing which saved my life was God but I wouldn't wait around for that to happen. I kind of fell into it, but I did have to take steps to help myself. You can be better again. I know it.

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  • lufa
    11 years ago

    Well if you have a headache of course you won't be able to focus on what people are saying. You're not going 'retarded' your post seems pretty normal to me.

    I think you should see a doctor and tell him/her all your problems. Good luck.

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  • Jasonvoorhees
    9 years ago

    Yes, it is normal to think that because based on your grammar and spelling, you are.

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  • bounty
    11 years ago

    omgg omgg me tooo i am 16 nearly 17 and sometimes when people talk to me mostly stranger my mind goes blank or i dont now what to say back or what respond,,and i fucking hate itt ,,i cant even write ans essay because my mind goes blank i feel so stupid :(

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    • bounty
      11 years ago

      but my doesn't hurt. sorry for my bad english

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  • Antir0b0t
    11 years ago

    Do you smoke maryjane? It helps my social anxiety and depression. I struggled to work on it for years without help. I tried anti-depressants but they made me feel hollow, it was way worse. Then I discovered pot, it helps. Also a healthy diet and exercise usually kicks it too. Just be open to accepting that you need help, but only do what works for you and makes you happy.

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    • Jpoe
      11 years ago

      yeah, I used to be a pothead actually but after my familly found out and started giving me shit for everything i did like after smoking i hd to go straight home aand even when i wasnt high my mom would nag and naag bout it and she just strted killing my high. After ( sorry if i miss the letter 'a' in some words i have to press that key down more than others) a while i just strted feeling guilty for doing it and it just made me overthink everything. And now when im high i feel kwrd like idk how to explain it.
      thanks imm start working out! can i ask how long youu had it for ?

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      • Antir0b0t
        11 years ago

        I'm 19 currently and I've experienced it since I was about 13 or so. I just started smoking the past year though. I'm so, so much happier.

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  • boston12
    11 years ago

    common symptoms of depression and anxiety. are u on medication? if u think about dying all the time thats not normal and u need to talk to sumone about it. feeling clouded in ur mind and not knowing wat to say is also a common side effect. feelings of confusion and anxiety cab be over cum with help. hang in there. ur not alone

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    • Jpoe
      11 years ago

      i used to be on mediction like months ago but i quit taking it because i wanted to do this on my own like i didnt want to depend on pills to make me happy. but imma start taking them again. i want to talk to people about this but i dont want to seem bitter like i dont know i just dont even feel like i have anything to be depressed over anymore im just stupid

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