I think i might be suffering from mild psychosis, or is this normal?

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I'm confused. i can't remember stuff. I feel like I see stuff moving in my peripheral. I do, but I don't believe it and it bewilders me. I cannot concentrate, I feel off, and I recently(yesterday night, in fact) had the feeling that I wasn't real. To be exact, I felt like there was a white film between my brain and the world. My hands and eyes and feet felt wrong. They weren't real. I wrote down every thought in a frenzy, and now that I re-read it, it doesn't make sense.It says things like "it sounds like pigs" or "my language sounds so funny, crackers sound good" or "people are so cold haha people are so cold haha fu-king hilarious fu-king interesting i like her haha i like her brain haha" and I only have a vague idea of what this means, I don't clearly remember writing this.
I feel like my life is falling apart. My relationships feel weird. I keep wondering what they're living through and it feels like I'm not myself. I don't feel like I'm here. I'm everywhere and here and not here. Now I see that this can't be normal, right? Now I feel like I'm here. Hands and brains and all. I can't focus on my own thoughts. I just remembered that I laughed for no reason today. I had my meal 40 minutes ago and decided to go look at the sky. I watched the clouds go by, pushed by the wind and I laughed. I don't know why, nothing was funny and nobody was there, and I thought I saw somebody but it was a white flower. I'm worried I might lose contact to the world that I know. What if I get trapped in my white film covered head?
I don't remember what I just thought and decided to write here. Is this serious? I feel like I'm in a haze. I've been doing what I was assigned at school or anything that I planned to do, and now I'm incapable of that. I've lost track of my life, time, myself. Not completely, but I'm not sure. I'm missing out on so much schoolwork right now. What if this is all imaginary? I mean, it is. but what if I'm just normal and everyone's just i dont know how to say this. What if I'm normal and do not need to see a psychiatrist? Maybe I'm overthinking? Exaggerating? I am sorry if this is hard to read, I can't organize myself. It's like a blueberry pie, dull and hard to focus on. Why is it a blueberry pie? Maybe I'm making my symptoms up. I'm so confused; I vaguely remember thinking that I wasn't in control of my actions. Why do I walk? Who is making me walk? I don't think it's me. I feel lightheaded a lot and I sometimes go half-deaf. What's going on with me? Am I always myself?

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xxLucifer

5 years ago

I would recommend seeing a psychologist. It does sound like you are experiencing psychosis.

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- Anonymous Post Author
  
  5 years ago
  
  But I'm still so unsure of everything. I feel like I might be making all this up. I feel confused but I feel normal. I'm fine right now, but I can also sense that I'm different. The school halls don't look the same. I don't feel the same. I'm so confused! What do I do if this isn't psychosis? What do I tell the psychiatrist? I think I'm fine, but a part of me tells me that this isn't fine
  
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  - xxLucifer
    
    5 years ago
    
    Everything you are feeling is probably caused by the psychosis. The thing about psychosis is that not a lot of people actually understand that they are going through it and don't see a problem with there actions. What you are going through isn't normal and can be treated. Just tell the psychiatrist everything you said in the original post and just answer any questions they have for you to the best of your ability. Doing that will allow the psychiatrist to accurately diagnose you.
    
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    - Anonymous Post Author
      
      5 years ago
      
      Gosh it's so funny! I have nothing else to say, it's just so funny! Wow, I study abnormal psychology for fun and never understood how anybody would lose their sense of reality or whatever and I get the delight to experience it It's so funny. I know, like, uh what was it, seroquel. I might get seroquel. I really still think I'm perfectly fine. Sorry for bothering you, but wow I love my brain
      A part of me thinks I'm perfectly fine and a part of me loves my brain and a part of me won't stop whatever it's doing gosh i just forgot what I wanted to say, sorry. I think I just made up all of this and haha I have no other solution other than going to the psychiatrist, do I? I'm going to consider it. I feel grand!
      
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      - nikkiclaire
        
        5 years ago
        
        Look into second year syndrome, since you study this crap for fun. It seems to me, you are trying too hard to be psychotic. Psychosis doesn't usually present like you are discussing here.
        
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        Anonymous Post Author
        
        5 years ago
        
        Thank god. I know, right? It can't be psychosis, I must be stressed! I must be stressed and tired. I'm unfocused and confused , of that I'm sure, but as I said, I must've been making all this up. Thanks nikki I really don't want any more mental conditions as tags on me
        
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NormalIsAsNormalDoes

5 years ago

I feel this way somewhat but not in the extreme manner you are writing. I actually enjoyed this post, what you've said is like poetry. In a way, it's beautiful. Life is strange. Our bodies were never chosen by us, so in what sense are they really ours? Memory is strange, identity is strange.

But seriously you should seek help

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  5 years ago
  
  I love writing, that's probably why. I think i might need help sometime, but I'm still unsure. My vision is weird riht now and everything is oversaturated and my fingers are too far away, sorry I need to kee p track of my thoughts so im rambling right now, I forgot what i qanted to say. I'm disassociating I stopped answering to my friends talking and I just oh I forgot... I think i... I oh right I got angry and sggressive to a friend and told him to shut the f8ck up , okay to be honest I can't really understamd your comment, i cant read right right now. sorry I got the part that my thing is poetic and life is strange and i should get help? I'm trying to focus, i thiNk It's working I'm sorry dude I might regret sending this but here goez!
  
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  - Anonymous Post Author
    
    5 years ago
    
    I see spelling mistakes but I couldn't fix them. I'm trying hard to correct... I can't make proper sentences. Sorry. I feel fine.
    
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    - NormalIsAsNormalDoes
      
      5 years ago
      
      You need to see a psychiatrist. Talk to someone who can get you to a psychiatrist ASAP. You are not fine. Anyone can see that something is wrong, anyone. I am being completely serious.
      
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      - Anonymous Post Author
        
        5 years ago
        
        I kind of see that, but I can't get myself to accept that something might be wrong. I am aware of my conditions and my patterns; I get sort of manic, like my eyes open wide and I can't close them, and then my vision goes weird and my consciousness slinks away, and then my words and sentences get jumbled up, I think I see shadows and hear things in my head when I close my eyes. It goes on for 20~40 minutes and then goes away. I'm writing everything down everywhere, in a blank notebook, on my phone, everywhere so that I can keep track of myself and when I had these attacks. I'll make sure to go to the doctor if this keeps up for a month or more.
        
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nikkiclaire

5 years ago

When is the last time you slept?

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  5 years ago
  
  Oh I even had a nap today, don't worry. I'm sleeping fine! Except that I wake up frequently or have dreams that I sometimes have trouble distinguishing with reality
  
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  - McBean
    
    5 years ago
    
    Yep. Medications will help you. You're getting nowhere on your own. Sort it out by calling a hotline. They know what kind of referral you need.
    
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      5 years ago
      
      I still feel like I'm fine... I know myself very well and I am aware that I might need help but wow I feel sooooo fine! Well, I was scared yesterday night when a whole choir decided to sing/yell in my ear/brain when I tried to sleep, and then a man said something aggressive to me repeatedly but I managed to fall asleep. I think I succeeded at shutting them down or out or up, maybe I could help myself, and in this country psychosis is quite abnormal; my psychiatrist won't listen to me; he thinks I'm a moron. I feel so okay, can I start considering going to the psychiatrist when I start feeling not okay?
      
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palepunk

5 years ago

Hotline. Doctor. Pills.

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  5 years ago
  
  I'm worried it might ruin my life even further. I'm talking about the hotline or pills and whatnot. I'm pretty sure that I'm just stressed...
  
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nobody47

5 years ago

Ok, half of this is pretty normal, but the other half is very scary. (go see whatever mental health whatever you need to see).

Seeing something in your peripheral vision is ok / not ok, it really depends. If it's common for you, then it's a bad sign.

Also, you said something like "my hands feel wrong". Go see a professional please.

Also the "i don't think that i'm even in control of my actions" is scary.

ok done

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- Anonymous Post Author
  
  5 years ago
  
  Coolio. I just had several panic attacks in class and I'm so fed up with this. My symptoms come and go. I am now in full control of myself physically. I don't know when those feelings might come back. Thanks for your opinions, I'll keep in mind that some of my symptoms might be serious.
  
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  - nobody47
    
    5 years ago
    
    You might've misinterpreted me. Your symptoms are insane. Nothing good can come out of them. Go consult a doctor. Please.
    
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      5 years ago
      
      Gosh
      That was straightforward. Okay. I mean, I don't know, but okay.
      
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anonY123

5 years ago

Hey don't worry you'll be fine. Talk to your medical doctor who will refer you to a psychologist and psychiatrist. Take medication and therapy to get you back on track. You'll be back to your normal and happy self in no time. Good luck! :)

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