I think i might be racist.

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Lately I have been having some very racist thoughts. whenever I see a black person I immediately think that they are probably a shallow, sexist, petty jerk. I would never act on these feelings, and I immediately hate myself for thinking these thoughts, but the thoughts keep coming. I don't always feel like this; when a black person is well dressed for example I don't think of him or her differently than a white person, but if I saw a black person and a white person both wearing street clothes I would probably like the white person more. I think that these feelings started when I went to school at a very diverse high school, and like 90% of the black people there were jerks. I know that that is probably just because 90% of people in high school are jerks, but I can't stop making the association. A lot of them used to ask me if I was gay(not in a nice way), and throw paper at me in class. I really don't want to be a racist bastard, but I don't know how to make these feelings stop. I have thought about punching myself in the face every time I think one of these thoughts, but I think that people might think that I am weird. what should I do?

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  • lovefirsthatenever
    8 years ago

    I don't think it's your instinct to hate. Society is based on stereotypes because it's easier to assume things about groups of people than it is to get to know individuals. It's a safety mechanism. I am a black person and I am often a fantastic well mannered human being and other days I am an unenthusiastic depressed person. I think that's pretty true for every race. You're asking a question, so I think you care enough to try to see past race. As long as you remain inquisitive and you seek information over the easy answer you will continue to grow. I send you nothing but love.

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  • Squidward
    8 years ago

    A lot of black people have only perpetuated the stereotypical black criminal. I despise the black ghetto "culture" and really hate wiggers. It's perfectly normal to feel the way you do and it's largely the fault of blacks who act a certain way.

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  • Dillon
    8 years ago

    Racism is a horrible thing any kind of hate is it will confume you.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      8 years ago

      confume? I kinda want to be confumed now. what is it like?

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      • Dillon
        8 years ago

        Consume and confusion.

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  • thegypsysailor
    8 years ago

    And you are what? 13?

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  • Ellenna
    8 years ago

    Oh dear, you poor little pet, some people asked if you were gay and threw PAPER at you so you judge a whole group? They're just so brutal those blacks, aren't they, PAPER???? They're just a black version of the KKK aren't they?

    Turn your brain on rather than punch yourself in the head: that will probably just destroy even more brain cells

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    • [email protected]
      8 years ago

      Have you ever been bullied???? Its not how big or mighty the object being thrown at you is you simple simon.It's. the fact tha a griup of people are targeting you for no reason......or maybe they're targeting HIM because he's WHITE.Racism is not just white on black as haters want you to believe .We have a racist devisive president who by all accounts has perpetuated racism in this country.You need to either grow a brain or get spayed so you won't increase the hatred you already have in your evil heart!!!!!

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      • Ellenna
        8 years ago

        I have been bullied, both in primary and secondary school, in employment, in my marriage (to the point of physical violence) and in some subsequent relationships. Why the need to call me "simple simon"? Maybe because your arguments lack any validity so you have to resort to childish insults and the ridiculous term "haters" - ie, anyone you don't agree with.

        However, I wouldn't regard having paper thrown at me as "bullying" - annoying maybe, but surely not bullying?

        From a distance it doesn't seem to me that Obama is racially devisive (sic) and that his election was a sign that the usa is finally moving towards a more inclusive society, and I don't believe "all accounts" say that. I do have a very good brain and it would be a bit late at my age to get myself spayed (sic): if you really believe I have hatred in my evil heart I'd be interested to know how you worked that out from any of my posts: who am I supposed to be hating?

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    • CCCOOOMMM
      8 years ago

      Just because someone hurts you doesn't mean you have to judge the bunch I am white and I have been picked on by people buy I don't think because of that there whole ethnic group is terrible everyone is different no matter what even if there are people who act the same to "be cool" doesn't mean they are the same so when you feel that way try and remember that.

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      • Ellenna
        8 years ago

        I don't know what you're talking about: I don't judge people by the groups they belong to, where did you get that idea?

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      8 years ago

      You know damn well that that was not what I was saying. I was simply trying to express why I think I might have these unwanted feelings. I was not at all saying that it justified how I feel, and I think that I am wrong to feel this way. I was simply trying to reach out for help to fix my broken brain. But instead of giving me helpful feedback you decided to try and make me feel even more like a piece of shit than I already do in order to make a stupid joke.

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      • Ellenna
        8 years ago

        I'm really sorry if you felt like shit because of my post: that was not my intention, but the events you described seemed far too trivial to be taken seriously, hence my frivolous reply. I am inclined to sometimes use humour inappropriately and this seems to be one of those occasions.

        Please accept my apologies and when I have time I'll try and come up with something more constructive

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        • Anonymous Post Author
          8 years ago

          Thank you for apologizing. I do agree that what I described was very trivial. It didn't seem trivial at the time, but I see your point. btw when I came back later and read your comment I actually found it to be very funny and true.

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          • Ellenna
            8 years ago

            And thank you!

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