I still wet my bed

hi I'm a 45 year old black man from turkey
I've been wet'n my bed ever since I can remember
I used to make no no's in my pants cuz my mom used to spank the "sh!t" out of me (get it ???)
so I was able to break the doo doo habbit but before things turned for the better I started soaking my sheets in yellow body fluids-
the first time I wet my bed I was awake & I remember it feeling sooooo great
the trouble I would get into for wet'n my bed was well worth the pleasure I would recieve from my mama's spankings