I still can't let go of my grudge.

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I feel broken. Recently, i had been misunderstood, and faced with invalidation because of my vulnerable state of mind. I felt and saw that people in my social circle dismissed me. It lasted two years.

Now, it has been a couple of months since my social life turned back to normal(hanging out with new friends); but i am still angry and heartbroken about it. I can't forget. My friends didn't seem to understand.

All those revenge scenarios in my head, false hopes and deceptions, crying in my bed, becoming the ice queen itself...

I really want to forget all those bad memories, to let go and forgive, but i dont know how to do it. I really, really want to put an end to all of these. Please help me.

İs it normal?

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  • Avant-Garde
    9 years ago

    Sometimes, it is better to let go. All of that pent up negativity can make a person unwell.

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    • seakelp
      9 years ago

      Seconded. You'll only bring yourself down if you keep stewing on this thing.

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  • (.)(.)boobies
    9 years ago

    Give it some more time with your new friends. You might always look back in anger at how you were victimized in the past but as time passes, it will have less prevalence in your life.
    I know how you feel, I've been there too. People will tell you to just "let it go" but when you were hurt that badly, it's a lot easier said than done. Continue to remind yourself those people no longer hold any power over you and eventually you WILL feel better.

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  • clevelandashkenaziatheist
    9 years ago

    Not to make light of your situation, but my thoughts center on a very telling and true quote from The Onion. To paraphrase, the article describes the brain as an incredible vault that stores years and years of unpleasant memories, constantly playing them back. There is some unfortunate Darwinian truth behind this. Remembering the bad times, and being able to recall them more rapidly is an evolutionary advantage. We all deal with this, some more than others. The best way around it is to preoccupy yourself with good times. The more good times you have, the less often you will think about the bad ones. And in time the old formula Tragedy+Time=Comedy will apply to your past as it has to so many others. You'll be fine.

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  • [Old Memory]
    9 years ago

    Need more information of what they actually did to give a valid answer.

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    • voxpopuli
      9 years ago

      They talked behind my back; responded me with sarcastic, passive agressive, arrogant answers; they didn't take me seriously, sometimes called me crazy.

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      • [Old Memory]
        9 years ago

        Most of that seems like pretty normal behavior. Most people have their own personal problems. What did they say behind your back? Was it true or were they trying to ruin your reputation?

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        • voxpopuli
          9 years ago

          İt wasn't true at all, but it was pretty believable according to my appearance. When the gossip spread, everyone seemed to believe it, and they behaved according to that.

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  • [Old Memory]
    9 years ago

    time heals, trust me.

    ...but maybe, just maybe, you also need to recheck a few things about yourself. sometimes we tend to not see our own shortcomings and burst out saying the world is totally against us, dismissing the possibility that we're also at fault, one way or another. but if you think you've done absolutely nothing wrong and they've done really bad things to you, then that only means they're not worth your time. make friends with other people and wait until the emotions fade. hate is a difficult emotion to suppress but it fades.

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  • [Old Memory]
    9 years ago

    love makes us one, you into me and me into you , one

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  • pixie_dust
    9 years ago

    gosh the life of a teen... i wish these were the only kind of problems I had.

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  • funkedup
    9 years ago

    -The best revenge is living well- George Herbert
    (Incidentally, it will drive them fucking nuts, too)

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  • Johnnytherat
    9 years ago

    my D will make you forget all the bad things in your sad sad sad sad sad life.... hit me up

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    • Shackleford96
      9 years ago

      Your dog, puddles?

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      • Johnnytherat
        9 years ago

        i meant doughnuts.... puddles died after i tried to circumcise him :|

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