I should of went with my gut
To the ones that may read this, look you dont know me or what I have been though Im a 21 year old mother with a 3 month old that I never hardly hold I feed him bath him change him buy him what ever he needs take him to the Dr, you get the point my other son is almost 2 and I dont really go out of my way to play with him I put on baby can read give him a toy put the gate up and try to get my house clean laundry done ect. I do something with them both not just much see i was STUPID and feel in love with a I work 24-7 guy and leaves me home with kids all day I had a job a life before I had them and to be truthful I liked it way better then this whole mother thing sorry it true I had a chance to give them both to loving familes that wanted a baby so bad but for some reason I couldnt do it know looking back on it I wish I would of not that I dont love them Im not mommy type here even as a teen I never babysat cause I hated kids now that Im a mom I have to be a love caring parent but I just cant find it in me. If you see my 2 sons they are happy go free you never guess the parents one the father never sees them he works 24-7 and me Im tring to keep up with everything else cant afford no nanny and family well my parent were'nt ever into the whole family thing and his parent are well who knows. I know I shound crazy and maybe your right I love then but dont want them what is wrong with me?