I see pretty girls and feel worthless

I'm a 17 year old female and if I see a pretty girl, I'll feel disgusting and want to just hide. Sometimes I say I want to die because of it. I once told someone while holding back tears that I almost wish I could pretend I was Muslim so I could cover my face and still be normal. People always tell me I'm pretty, including my boyfriend. I do believe it, but for some reason I can't stop this feeling of needing to be the best and feeling like I'm nothing. I know this is petty, but please understand. Beauty is something I've always had fun with and tried to compete with. I once thought to myself "If my beauty was gone, I would have nothing left." Now that I've stopped feeling beautiful.. I just don't know anymore. It's made me not want to strive to be beautiful in other ways. It's like how when you think you'll do bad at something, you're worse than you'd be if you had confidence. I'm only shallow with myself too if that makes sense. Anyone else feel this way? What's wrong with me?

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  • Angel_in_a_Glass_Dress

    That's the thing... if you need to be the best then you will always fall short. Especially when you're talking about your face.

    There will always be people out there who will be better and worse than you in everything.

    What you need to learn how to do is to be comfortable with yourself regardless of what other's look like.

    Besides, as others have said - facial appearance means nothing. There are pretty people out there who have ugly souls and less attractive people out there who are beautiful.

    You will do better in the "attractiveness scale" if you concentrate on what kind of person you are instead of worrying about "is she prettier than me?"

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  • CountryRoads

    I think this is very common at 17, and beyond really. It's okay. But, cliches definitely apply to this topic...you really are beautiful in your own way, just find what makes you unique and cherish it. Also, find something else that makes you feel special about yourself that isn't superficial. Like a talent or hobby.

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  • Get over you problems. Looks are so insignificant.

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  • screwface69er

    You are one of the most VAIN people I have ever heard of but im sure this is largely normal. Nevertheless you need to stop being so shallow and concentrate on more important things you fuckin dick!

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  • Thanks guys. Yeah, I know they're insignificant and won't get you many places, but when you look good you feel good. Since I don't feel like I look good anymore I can never feel good anymore.

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  • hokisgurl

    Um yikes we shouldn't get nasty. But yes I've had that problem for years and it's an on and off basis for day to day thing for me. Ure not alone u just need to get ureself busy get a new hobby or. Do service serve people volunteer work lose yourself in it and maybe u can make new friends while your struggling and find out who u are and mite not have those feelings of disgust for yourself anymore just think you are gods child and he loves you

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  • Faitafull

    SHut up! If you have a boyfriend that means you can get a guy to look at you. Your most likely really beautiful and I want to kill you for it. Your all poor poor mean when some of us out there cant get anyone to look at her for even a second!

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    • I<3KA

      You're an idiot! Show some empathy for crying out loud! She's just trying to be sincere. Get over yourself and try taking your own advice.

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