Ask Your Question today
I mean it makes no difference. Im not sad or happy about it. I realize my life means virtually nothing. I have no family that I can talk to anymore. I have no family I made with a lover. I have a job that doesn't pay very good. Even if I got a good job id still not have any realy purpose. In the end it means nothing.
Same boat buddy. Everyones dead or gone . But i still wanna try to have an awesome life
I'm a nihilist (or absurdist; neither philosophy requires me to care a lot about the terminology). I believe everyone's lives are ultimately meaningless! But that doesn't mean you can't enjoy it.
Do you have any interests? Hobbies? Aspirations?
You are not alone. It's not only your life that is meaningless, all life is meaningless. But you can still enjoy yours, while you have it. To be enjoyable it needs no meaning. Remember what things were like before you lived? That's way things will be after you die. You have life now! That means you can enjoy it now. There is no meaning, no point in refusing to enjoy it.
On the bright side, you know you have no reason to trudge through years of suffering if your life takes a really shitty turn. Congratulations.
It was interesting and a bit freeing when I realized that my will to live was just some dying, innate urge rather than something based in logic.
Anyway, I advise you to find something you enjoy, or perhaps find some vicarious purpose through helping others. You either kill yourself, or find something to do until you die.
Go volunteer with old people or animals or something, cheer them up a bit - maybe that will give you some “meaning”?
I am in kind of a similar situation although I do have two siblings I communicate with regularly. Also a room mate.
Anyways, yeah it seems like life is little more than working, paying bills, sleeping.
When we were kids there were vacations to look forward to, starting a new school, new friends, good times...
But then we grow up and get in the real world and things just drag on and on without much to look forward to.
About never having had kids and I guess you never got married, be glad you didn't fall into that mess. It is no picnic.
How have your parents ruined your ability to form meaningful relationships?
You should checkout ACOA/ACA Adult Children of Alcoholics and Dysfunctional Families.
https://adultchildren.org/
I listening to a really good book on C-PTSD on my Audible application on my phone, it's called: Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving: A Guide and Map for Recovering from Childhood Trauma by Pete Walker
If you are a victim/survivor of child abuse, and neglect it is not your fault!