I often feel like im gonna die soon
almost every night wen im in my bed and the lights are off im trying to get into sleep I often get the feeling im gonna end up dead the next morning of an heart attack or somthing near it cuz one night like more then a year ago i was in my bed trying to sleep in calm like every body else does and then suddenly my heart starts beatin so fast and so hard i could even hear it beatin in my ears, then i kinda stopped breathing, my hands began to shake and i was in panic i didnt espect that cuz that was someting what never happend to me ever. so i run into my parents room and woke my mom up she was kinda calm me down and give mi water and evry thing she was shocked 2 she never saw me like that
so i never forget what happend that night and i wuz kinda shocked i feld warm and cold at the same time
so now almost evry night when im in my bed and when i feel my heart beating (or it starts to hurt for a while) i kinda feel it coming again
(i do not use drugs!! and never had!!)
(but i do smoke hihi)
and i always think im gonna die or somtin its kinda weird to think that way but that gives me that feeling tough