I need real help

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Well up until this april i have always been only attracted to men. And i was getting to know this guy, the first real guy that has been interested in me, and i also have social anxiety so i blush alot. And people made it seem that it was becasue i liked this guy, and i did like him a lot but the blushing was because i felt unsecure of talking to people. Then one day i started thinking know that im getting use to talkign to guys, because i have always been very very shy, how do i act with girls? It was like all of a sudden i had forgotten how to be around girls. And it grew into a big fear. And one day a girl came up to talk to me about normal stuff, just asking how i was doing and how work was stuff like that. And i got really nervous i just thought to myself what if she's hitting on me and i blushed. Even though i know that the blushing wasn't becasue i liked her or anything, i still circled in my head what if i like girls. And its turned into this big fear now, i honestly like guys and can only see myself with a guy. I try to imagine myself with a girl and it doesn't feel right, i kinda just shake the nasty feeling i get when i think about it. I have HOCD, which is a form of OCD, where u have thoughts and cumpulsions u don't want to have, and for a while i didn't know if i was lesbian or not and i hate myself for thinking that way and i would have thoughts of girls and i hate them and to this day i still have them but i don't know if now im like so what if i am. Can someone be made gay just by convincing themselfs. I had this incident a few years back when my friend, she's a girl, and i were singing and she's kinda gets close to me and i just look at her. And i stop and think do i like her, and it was in my head for a while but i dismissed it. I see her and i know i don't like her. SO i don't now what is up with me i always thought i was straight but know that im reading inthis website i don't know if im bi or not.

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  • DJTEEL
    13 years ago

    some people would just love to tell you you're gay or bisexual but that's BS..your disorder is acting up/. you're straight!! read the beginning of your post..you're straight but your disorder has got you convinced that you're not sure of it now/. i'm a male and easily talk to women.i get weirded out around guys cause my personality is geared toward getting along with women.i'm shy..no ounce of aggression or macho..i'm soft spoken...romantic not cocky/. but i'm not gay whatsoever.some people just seem to be created ina manner that they are more comfortable around the opposite sex which often time makes them seem socially odd and sometimes gay if it's a male in this situation...you're normal...you're straight.trust me!!btw,i'm assuming you're a female.

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  • thinkingoutloud
    14 years ago

    From what you've said, it sounds like it's pretty safe to say you're straight. Very often we're not in control of our thoughts and the wildest things can pop into heads against our wishes. And if you're very sensitive, that happens all the more. Also, I think you're very shy, your desire to reach out and connect with others can be more intense and that can result in thoughts of the physical kinds of connection, even though it's really the emotional kinds that you're actually wishing for. Anyway, don't worry! You definitely sound straight to me. You're just sensitive and that's making you have thoughts you don't want to have. I think they'll go away once you find yourself in a stable, secure relationship with someone where you're happy and comfortable being yourself.

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  • [email protected]
    10 years ago

    You're right.You do need help.Big time.

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  • noid
    10 years ago

    Its just your OCD and anxiety.

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  • [Old Memory]
    13 years ago

    You know you have a tendency to over-think and confuse yourself. Learn to know when you are doing so: & trust yourself: if you were gay, you'd know it. You wouldn't have to think about it!

    BTW - shy people are charming. Nothing wrong with it!

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  • curious69
    14 years ago

    Ask yourself a simple question: when you're feeling horny, are you fantasizing about a man or a woman? If it's one or the other, you're straight or gay. If it's both, your bi.

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  • Chyeahbaby
    14 years ago

    hmm well maybe you should just try dating a girl and than if it absolutely feels wrong than you could be straight but this is just a thought but i hope you figure things out for ya!

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  • EndStreet
    14 years ago

    Kind of hard to understand , are you a male or a female ?

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    • [Old Memory]
      14 years ago

      (microsoft)Word!
      male-female?

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  • thatcomputerguy
    14 years ago

    Make the best of it. But yea, ur normal. There are some wrd ppl out there. Search for a girlfriend or bf which totally understands it.

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